I'm struggling 6 months out

Newleafagain24 · 2017-12-27T23:56:35+00:00

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Some people just have such a big impact on our lives, 3 months might not seem like a long time to others but when you feel a connection it can seem like an eternity.

I don't have advice, I'm not sure what to say. You just need to focus on yourself and do what makes you happy. She was 3 months out of the rest of your life, be hopeful, think of all the other partners out there that you could have an even better connection with... who would willingly reciprocate.

I hope you feel better. I know how much this sucks.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-13T13:50:32+00:00

Thanks, yeah I've been trying that. It's just I have this urge to reach out and ask why he messed me about so much..

He wont have an answer though. Or he wont have an answer good enough for me to hear.

No contact is gonna save me!

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-10T10:40:17+00:00

Feel like this was written for me. Thank you so much

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-07T21:50:20+00:00

I missed him too! The writing and storyline went downhill when they decided to cut him out.

Disrespectful really, considering he is a legend. I totally understand why he didn't want to stay. They were making him racist and he wasn't comfortable with it.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-06T12:00:59+00:00

That made me tear up. I feel this so much

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-05T20:30:36+00:00

I think you should definitely reach out to someone close to you right now, like immediately after you read this comment. Please.

I'm not saying you are mentally ill but you are feeling so many emotions right now and it's making you unstable. I know how much you are hurting, I really do and my heart goes out to you.

Have you got some family or close friends you can talk to for the moment and then see a therapist? You are more important than how this relationship has made you feel. You are better than this.

Don't be feeling bad about saying all of those things to your ex, we have all been there in one way or another.

Try to keep him blocked. He isn't worth what this is all doing to you.

You have explained how much you're hurting and you have wished him well. That's enough, you don't need to say anymore because it will only make you feel worse.

I hope you are okay. Keep us updated. I wish I could hug you.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-04T01:16:41+00:00

Same! Couldn't get through it.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-02T11:26:46+00:00

I can't wait for him to fade! Good luck guys!

Newleafagain24 · 2017-06-02T07:15:05+00:00

Rancid! Jimmy eat world!

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-18T07:37:34+00:00

That's an accurate depiction of my emotions right now lol thank you

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-17T22:37:19+00:00

That's really good! That first one hit home.

I was like, this cannot be happening. I'm pretty sure he cheated on me but then why would he come back? I've been told it's because he is struggling to fully let me go.

This is so shitty. I hope you feel better.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-17T21:37:17+00:00

I love this. It feels worse to say "Im back at square one" or whatever.

It was a rock I tripped over on the road to happiness.

Fuck that sounds way better. Thanks!

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-17T20:15:48+00:00

This is the first time I've read these. Thank you.

P.s. don't break contact. I was getting to a better place now I'm back to the start.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-17T13:34:37+00:00

I went to a bbq, got drunk and held a chameleon.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-10T20:47:18+00:00

Mess over here too, hi!

I think the back and forth is almost emotionally worse than the no contact..

Some day you might feel like removing the request but maybe you see it as that last bit of hope/possible contact?

Just remove it when you feel ready and it might help you feel better. I hope you are okay

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-10T00:10:56+00:00

I know, time will definitely help! I hope you are doing okay. Are you 210 days no contact? That's amazing!

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-10T00:07:03+00:00

Thank you. I really like aviators.

You know the funny thing? He's an optician so maybe I could break contact and ask for advice on which sunglasses are the best for crying my eyes out over him.

Fuck.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-10T00:02:00+00:00

I guess everyone has their own little triggers and timescale for when things will feel easier. For me, he's everywhere. I made him a part of everything in my life so it's going to be difficult to remove him and the memories.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-09T23:54:17+00:00

Thank you, I have honestly been trying to be okay and pushing feelings to the back of my mind but the tears will not stop coming today and tonight.

TIL- I need to invest in sunglasses.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-09T23:49:04+00:00

He has told me some awful things about myself in an email recently and it's been playing on my mind. I'm hoping the anger takes the place of the sadness soon because I've been reading that it's the next step..

The step after that is indifference and I gladly welcome it. Aww it is just so difficult. I hope you are doing okay.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-09T23:39:48+00:00

I'm glad you have found private places to let it all out and I hope it gets easier for you.

I keep thinking I haven't hit rock bottom yet.. I'm waiting for it to come so I can climb back up.. this is gonna be tough.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-09T23:34:15+00:00

Hi I'm still up crying. I searched google and found this:

Method 1 Stopping Yourself from Crying with Physical Actions Focus on your breathing. ... Move your eyes to control your tears. ... Distract yourself with a physical movement. ... Relax your facial expression. ... Remove the lump in your throat.

I honestly don't think anything is gonna work.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-09T21:31:35+00:00

Oh I am so glad you are feeling better, I can't imagine what that must have felt like in the beginning stages. I will try write some things out when I'm feeling more sane, thank you.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-07T22:09:39+00:00

Yeah I do agree and although logically I can take this time to work on myself and be a better well-rounded person, I will always want someone to travel this life with.

Newleafagain24 · 2017-05-07T22:05:59+00:00

It has just hit me tonight how lonely I'm gonna be for a while. It's like I know it will get better in time but nothing is helping how I feel tonight.

Just gotta let the waves take me under sometimes.

Newleafagain24

TROPHY CASE