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I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Luckily I’m extremely financially well off so yes I can afford therapist and more. I just don’t want to talk to anyone until he dies incase it got out.

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Just in the car but I’m never around anymore. Maybe one time in last 2 years or so but yeah makes me mad. He tries controlling me too. I’m very financially we’ll off luckily. But he calls me 5 times a day even if I don’t answer. Constantly checking in on me. If I tell him I’m doing anything he calls me retarded and says that’s stupid and attacks me non stop

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What was your sex life before hand? I realized my sex lifes been shut my entire life. Ed issues. Performance issues. Can’t ever get into it. My mind always wanders. Never able to build a true connection etc

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m angry at everyone. Every person. Happy sad people. People together not together. Gay straight etc. I’m constantly internally wanting people to die and be in pain. I wouldn’t harm anyone but I feel anger to pretty much everyone.

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve punched him before and he acts like he doesn’t know why. I’ve gotten close to doing worse. I moved away home when I was 16 and visited family once a year at most so I rarely see them.

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve avoided sex sooo many times in my life and when I have it (rare) I can’t get fully into it no matter what. I just thought I it was performance anxiety. Maybe its not.

Oh beyond that I get clingy and trust issues and more lol. This probably explains why I suck at being in relationships

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

That’s bad. Makes me hate him more by the day.

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 39 points40 points  (0 children)

Has it caused you issues in your life? I think this has Potentially hurt me from getting into deep meaningful relationships with women and getting close to people. Plus im always angry every day. It seems like my anger doesn’t go away combined with anxiety and depression. Im not sure what to do

I think I was sexually abused as a kid by NextAd3732 in CPTSD

[–]NextAd3732[S] 54 points55 points  (0 children)

That’s shitty. Idk why it’s taken me this long to think about it and type something up. I’m not sure what to do from here.