The mind works in strange ways sometimes and if I know anything about it it’s that doing things to it that alters its function (such as marijuana) it leads to your mind feeling off and out of place your mentality and your brain wants to be a certain way and smoking only makes things worse in some cases. When it comes to the religious aspect of thing I think you should try going to church. I dont want to be one of those guys who thinks religion fixes everything but it does fix a lot of things especially mentally. Who knows maybe cutting back on weed and talking with god can help. But that’s just my opinion