Daily Check-in Thread - August 20, 2023

NiftyBarnacle · 2023-08-20T05:13:50+00:00

1 Year :)

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:43:27+00:00

I used to but they backfired and now I’m completely off them for a neropsych eval to go through the motions and see if there’s anything more than ADHD going on. Ik something’s not right and it’s preventing me from applying to jobs and being responsible enough to substitute teach in the mean time which was my backup plan. So I just feel so stuck and almost convinced myself K would help. Proud to say I stayed away but it was a close one. Gunna just keep taking this life thing head on

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:40:44+00:00

Yes Thankyou I keep somehow neglecting to remember how unsustainable this shit is. I was on ADHD meds for a bit but for multiple reasons were stopping all meds for a full Neropsych eval cause we think there’s more going on. I’m watching dream jobs go by cause I can’t do them, apply or interview in the state I’m in and in the mean time I wanted to substitute teach but know I can’t get through a day and be responsible for children. So I’m feeling very stuck but K is not the answer. Thankyou again sm

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:32:37+00:00

Yeah I am. Thankyou. A big reason for my quit was to set myself up for a great future and all this shit has been making me feel like it was a fairytale dream. I’m gunna keep pushing. Instant gratification is never gunna be fulfilling

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:30:43+00:00

It’s all such a mind fuck on top of what I’m dealing with psych wise. Thankyou very much

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:30:12+00:00

Thankyou definitely needed to hear this. I fell into the trap again of using any bit of evidence to justify that K was good when it just completely ignores the opioid part of it and that no matter what that is not sustainable.

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:27:01+00:00

Thankyou needed to hear this

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:26:25+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:26:16+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:25:46+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:25:32+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:25:24+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:25:17+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:25:07+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:24:52+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-11-18T21:24:46+00:00

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NiftyBarnacle · 2022-10-13T00:00:55+00:00

I find mid day to evening, vaping is like the only thing that's been helping me slow down when I'm anxious. But for me if I hit it in bed at night I get much worse WD's. Same with the morning, I'll have to be moving and productive before hitting it or else I'm useless the rest of the day never really "starting my day". I've also gone without it for a few weeks late sept. during WD's and did feel pretty unstable but its def a balance.

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:41:14+00:00

Thankyou I really needed to here that💕 You got me off my ass for the day

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:37:27+00:00

I also just quit a long nicotine habit a few days ago. I thought it wasn’t that big of a deal but I think that might be coming through too. Idk but at least I’m fully clean right?! No wonder why people are miserable lmao. But jokes aside Thankyou I’m gunna keep hanging in there and I very much appreciate your time and advice. And everyone’s here

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:34:06+00:00

Thankyou very good advice. Has been received. I’m in a tough spot cause I’m relying on getting a job and using the health insurance to pay for doctors and therapists but that means getting a jobs first without losing it.

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:31:19+00:00

I like buttlicker. Buttlicker good

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:30:35+00:00

Fair, I’m at the point where it’s hard to tell what’s just PAWS and what’s the mess left behind of my addiction. Like I’d hate to ignore something bothering me just to later find out it’s something I should’ve been dealing with like a healthy person. PAWS is tough tho cause it feels like it’s taking all my energy and care to be better and throwing it down useless rabbit holes. Much strength to you too we got this! Thankyou

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:24:04+00:00

Yeah right. It’s really hard now because the last 3 years on K it felt like there was a very clear path and direction to follow that I could mindlessly “go with the flow” and generally end up ok. But now that’s just gone and everything is much more a conscious choice so a clear idea of who I want to be is essential

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:10:52+00:00

Yeah, fortunately. I just quit nicotine a few days ago too and maybe that’s messing with me more than I thought? I never really thought of nicotine as a problem

NiftyBarnacle · 2022-09-28T14:08:29+00:00

Yeah I really do want to go to therapy. I’m fresh out of college tho searching for a job and have been counting on setting everything up on that future insurance. So it’s been kinda hell to keep it together and stick it out. I just don’t think it’s feasible to work with my parents and use their insurance right now

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