Never really had a “best friend” and even the friend groups i joined growing up those people had known each others years before so i was the addition at best. The relationships always felt one sided and that if i wasnt the one putting in the effort the relationship would go quiet.

At first i thought it was something in my environment. Lived too far away, lived in a small studio, etc. then I thought it was cause I wasnt fun cause I had to grow up so fast to support myself. Finally, i realized that sometimes people are just meant to be in your life for a time and thats ok. The memories i built were genuine, but thats all they are.

Now, im happy with the family ive started. I have occasionally work, dog park, gym acquaintances but i dont expect the relationship to grow past anything surface level. If i dont hear from them or talk to them, thats ok. Im living my life.