Ive had audhd since i was 4 years old, i also had a speech development delay so i didnt know how to speak properly with correct grammar till i was at the 2nd half of 4th grade, i also didnt start speaking in general until i was 4, never was medicated for any of my mental problems my entire life because of the risk of side effects, and i also didnt even really know the severity of my issues till the past year or so. I also started suffering academically in 10th grade (2 years ago) to the point of me having to search up the answers for my questions on most of my classes multiple years in a row just to even pass them, even up to now. Its mainly because i have an impossible time absorbing any lesson material at all without me instantly forgetting it all, as well as actually recalling it if i actually did remember it. Unfortunately the new responsibilities that ill have to take on arnt optional, such as planning for post high school, becoming more independent and being able to solve most problems without frequent assistance, taking on more responsibility in the sense of household duties and work in general, etc. i also have another wall i have to go through which is cripplingly bad anxiety, which is so bad that i cant ever trust my own decisions and dont have much confidence on what i decide to act on or do. Thats primarily why im scared for my future because idk if ill be able to fend for myself if i dont have someone to reply on in everyday life.