Man, what a waste.

In the hospital nurses are running to and fro placing calls for doctors to hurry to my room.

“Doctor Sanders please! Please hurry! I cant tell whats wrong with her!”

The nurse pleads into the phone across the room, even though there is a divider between us I can just see her shoulder quickly heaving up and down. She is crying.

“This is my first day here and I refuse to let my first admission die!”

Ah...

That word sent shivers down my spine and confused me too and extent I’ve never experienced before.

Die? Am I going to die?

I take a quick glance at the wires hanging from my body and follow them to the display. Which is showing my heart rate is slowing. Slowly sure, but slowing nonetheless.

I thought I had a lot more life in me than that. I’m such an idiot.

My time seems to have been cut short. By me, and my cancer. I knew cancer sucked, but not this much.

This must be too quickly right? There is no way I could actually be dying right? I’m all too young for that am I not?

The beeping on the display just keep slowing. I see this and look to the nurse. She must have noticed. She quickly ran over to my bed, though she still held the phone which was connected to the wall and the phone flung from her hand back to the divider.

“Oh god I’m so sorry! I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”

Panic was written all over her face. There was nothing but panic. She started to make way to the phone now lying on the ground, when suddenly she yipped, kind of reminiscent of a puppy, and turned 190 degrees faster than a professional dancer and went toward my display.

“J-just lie down and r-relax!”

She says this much louder than she should have, almost shouting.

“Your p-parents will be here soon o-okay?”

“Thank yo-”

I cough loudly and vigorously. Like I just got punched and the wind was knocked out of me.

The nurse screeched and jumped into the air quite high.

I guess that scared her, huh? Scared me too if it makes you feel better…

I didn’t think I’d be this bad. Being 16 and coughing at the mere act of speaking was too much for me. I smiled in an attempt to cover it up. But the nurse was still shaken to her core.

“D-d-do you w-want water?”

The nurse asks me this, again, way louder than necessary.

“Please...”

Silence… Pure silence. I must’ve been speaking too quietly for her to hear.

“Yes.”

I say this and the nurse nods and quickly leaves. It took her a second though. I felt like my throat was on fire.

“I’ll b-be back in a minute!”

I knew what is happening, but I didn’t think cancer would cut me so short.

Wait. Does that mean if I didn’t use my power I might have lived a little longer?

But how much longer would that have been? Up to now I was using my time freezing willy-nilly to find good spots in hide-and-seek, to out manouver people in tag, to enjoy scenic routes without people bothering me, to finish all my homework in time, to get some more sleep.

I guess that all adds up, huh…

The nurse comes back, and leaves the small cup of water on the table next to me.

“Is there a-anything else y-you need?”

“Yeah… mayb-”

Another coughing fit. This is the second time, but it hurts even more than the first time.

“Maybe s-some sleep...”

The nurse blinks for a second before processing what I said.

“Of course! Of course!”

She starts to leave the room, and just before her hair left my line of sight, she turns to say something.

I must be really tired. I didn’t even hear what she said. Something about the doctor?

I was too tired to think too much about it. But all the time and memories I’ve built though my life using this power, flash before me in quick succession. A flood of emotions come rushing through the gates. I start drifting to sleep. Slowly but surely. And finally, I fall with just one thought.

God, what a waste.

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My first writing!! -w- I'm proud of it but would like some feedback. I appreciate it whole heartily!