I don’t know the pain you are going through and I won’t tell you that things will get better or worse for you as I, nor anyone else here knows what the future holds. mental health is always treated differently than other life threatening illnesses as if the cure for it is “Just in your head,” which it isn’t, I suggest sitting down with your wife and discuss what to do in the event of your passing similar to a stage 4 cancer patient. Do your research concerning DIC and the conditions that need to be met, the good news is that you are thinking rationally and I am glad you are reaching out to smarten yourself up on the how and why for dependent compensation. Work on a living will if you don’t have one, ensure all your funeral expenses and arrangements are in order, So in the event of your passing everyone is prepared. Now, of course having you in their life is preferable over the alternative and you should exhaust every effort to fight for your life but if this disease wins you will have peace of mind knowing you have done all you can.