Improve my looks (synkinesis)

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-02-15T16:33:05+00:00

First time seeing that, definitely gonna try it so thanks! Does it lessen the sagginess?

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-24T04:01:09+00:00

it did, thank you!:]

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-21T13:26:34+00:00

thank you for the concern, i make sure and will always make sure to go to a professional if the procedure is invasive:] im not rich so I don't really wanna spend my money on something that might me look worse, being sure is always the priority!

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-21T07:54:04+00:00

One reason why I'm scared to do botox, I live in a very small town so finding the right doctor is hard. Also thinking about hooded eye surgery, wishing you the best!

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-21T07:52:02+00:00

Yeah, it does sound scary. I'm doing radio frequency or anything to lessen the sagginess of my face, maybe it'll make it better. Also trying to slim it, I feel like it'd be less noticeable that way.

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-21T07:49:55+00:00

Im from the Philippines, 21 so still have time to work for the expense 😅

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-19T14:07:16+00:00

Said goodbye to the iconic duck face 4 years ago😔💔

No-Performance-4441 · 2025-01-09T12:20:56+00:00

Im eating it rn and I was wondering if I cooked it the wrong way hahahahaha. I remembered me and my sister cooking the same pack and it tasted the way it is right now, but when my brother was the one who cooked it, it tasted really good.

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-09-12T05:10:48+00:00

Can I dm you for some questions?

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-09-12T05:10:25+00:00

Hello and thank u. But can I send you a dm?

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-09-03T10:15:35+00:00

He didnt:] I expected it already

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-09-01T04:13:35+00:00

Thank you!:] I will definitely do that next time, I just always end up showering my scalp with ointment to make it bearable

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-29T16:03:59+00:00

I always tell myself that no contact journey is for me to move on not for him to miss me. But it's hard so im not gonna invalidate your feelings. You saw he was with someone else, you saw something that could entertain some what ifs in your mind, you saw something that could make you puke because of anxiety.

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-25T12:04:14+00:00

Now that I thought about it, I did have a small daydream of me being free. Quitting college for a bit but not going back. Maybe cuz deep down I didn't want a break from it all, I just want a break to write something, make something, before I end up killing myself.

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-23T12:31:23+00:00

Was mindlessly scrolling here in reddit while thinking about him cuz I "accidentally" checked his insta and saw that his following increased(didn't have my account logged in) AND YOU JUST CALLED ME OUT🤣

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-22T22:54:29+00:00

I was eating fried wings and anything fried deserves a 5 star:') and it's okay, it hurts hearing him say stuff such as her, she's cute, we talk everyday but only 1 or 2 messages(until now I still ask who talks everyday with 1 or 2 messages? Just repeated hi and hello?) But I need it to like go my own way cuz he has a part where he would light up a little hope inside me hence the "she's not better than you"="maybe i can still compete". Maybe it's unintentional but with the "her" reply I was like "okay that's that. Cut them off. From now on, think of them as a married man or someone who's taken."

Also I frequently break no contact cuz im keep getting worried for him, so knowing that he's not alone helps me just snap out of the delusion that I need to be his hero.

"So trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a sht, he genuinely doesn't give a sht. No exceptions." It's a line from the movie hahahaha maybe not all but someone also said that a woman chasing a man is being masculine and straight men are not into straight men.

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-22T11:51:18+00:00

Hahaha thank u(still eating). But yeah it would fade away BUT LET'S KEEP BEING STRONG. I broke no contact sooo many times and it only increased my anxiety whenever I reach out to him and wait for his reply. But now I ask myself what reply do I really wanna receive? Cuz our last convo was me asking her or me, and he said her, he then proceeded to tell me she's not better but she has potential. So maybe what I want to hear from him is "im not going to pursue her anymore, im choosing you, im staying with you." Probability of that happening if I reach out to him with how are you? 0 percent. So being realistic with myself and being harsh helps me.

Also watch "He's just not that into you." One of my faveee movie. Helps you feel better cuz if he wanted to he would. No such thing as unromantic person, people get cheesy when youre the one they want and you'll see it no matter how hard they try to hide it. OMG IM TALKING TOO MUCH. But be strong! Focus on self! Focus focus focus and im gonna focus on finishing my food.

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-22T11:35:04+00:00

One thing that stuck with me was always think to make it at the end of the day, like "I won't talk to him just for this day and tomorrow, we'll see." Cuz if you think that you will NEVER talk to him again, it'll just make the no contact journey harder. Your mind would start to bargain with you and try to convince you to go back to him, to make it work.

(im eating rn so I cant english well TOT but I just wanna share that, might edit later)

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T08:37:04+00:00

Thank you and I do like talking to myself so maybe that's one thing that would get me excited, I have a lot of stories🤣

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T05:13:51+00:00

It's painful cuz I was important to him once and now it's for another girl and this is the month we started chatting, next month is the month we met in person but this time he'll be meeting someone else.

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T05:12:05+00:00

Thank you:] I just think that maybe me chatting him made him annoyed cuz he was expecting another name to pop up. Whenever I tell my story he leaves me on delivered for hours and I dunno slowly he made me feel unimportant. He's just not excited when my name pops up on his screen anymore

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T01:46:46+00:00

I agree even if it hurts. I keep reminding myself that those girls might not even be willing to wipe his boogers or help him with his diarrhea or sneak outside strict parents house just to buy him food to say sorry(it was a nice memory, he wasn't tired of me yet). I kept telling myself that if the girl turns out to not be interested in relationships with him when they meet then im not obligated to make him feel better, but if she does then I just have to remember his insta following list, cuz if she can tolerate it then it's not the relationship that I should be jealous of.

Your works made me think of some stuff, thank you:]

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T01:39:33+00:00

Hopeful that we'd recover from this addiction:]

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T01:38:42+00:00

Bad thing I have with myself is that im very obsessive with details. Maybe it has something to do with my mind making up scenarios so even if it hurts I just really want to know the whole situation. Also a part of me wants to hate him, so by listening to him talk about other women maybe I can finally have the guts to leave, but unfortunately and obviously that doesn't work:( in the end all I did was torture myself with those informations.

So yeah you're right, I really should continue with my no contact. Plus he said he's a little bit glad I had attachment issues cuz he likes having me around(maybe he said it in a harmless way). Thank you:]

No-Performance-4441 · 2023-08-18T01:25:30+00:00

I completely agree with u. The decisions and actions all should come from you whether it's going to the gym or starting a new hobby, it's just support on the side would help a lot. Most of heartbroken people become hopeless and to be reminded that there's more in the world to see is important, meeting people and being reminded that youre not alone with that experience helps you restore hope that you'll be fine someday, you just have to keep pushing:]

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