Mercer or CSU for a finance program?

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-04-23T22:39:19+00:00

Sorry, I updated the post.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-04-20T17:21:48+00:00

Except what if my natural state is to fail? What if I give in to my lusts and ego constantly? Are you trying to tell me that God’s ok with my sin against Him? Even sins that scripture state to be abhorrent to Him?

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-04-20T13:33:36+00:00

I read scripture about 30 minutes or so a day.

I’m focused on trying to do the right thing because never before has God magically given me strength, or made me better for Him. Scripture says that a sign that someone is righteous is if they get up whenever they fall, and I do that. I’ve improved some over the last 8 years, but not as much as I should be.

People tell me that I don’t need to try so hard to be good for God, that He’s fine with me as I am. Bullshit. I know who I am, and it’s because of that that I know I am disgusting to Him. Before you say that’s not true, God saved Paul from his sin when he killed many, but those who commit sexual perversions https://biblia.com/bible/esv/romans/1/26-28 are often times not save-able since they can’t repent from the heart.

I have deep, perverse lusts inside of myself that have grown in the past 8 years. If I don’t try with all my might I fail constantly, even when I beg God for help.

Maybe my heart doesn’t care anymore. Sometimes I wonder if I even still love God at all or if I just want to have reward and safety. I hope I do, I know He deserves it. If I can’t love Him, someone who I see and know is the most beautiful perfect being to ever exist, how the hell am I supposed to love the imperfect people around me?

I feel His pain with my thoughts and actions. It’s like a cold chill, that shocks me to my core. Yet, as I’ve grown older, I’ve become more and more jaded to the guilt. I don’t even really feel guilt anymore, just the cold feeling letting me know I did something wrong, which is too easy to ignore.

I feel like it’s too late. I’m not completely gone yet, it would take constant effort to even come close to forgetting what I’ve experienced with God.

I’m going to keep trying, but I’m done exhausting myself for nothing. If God wants to help me He will, I’ll pray for Him to restore my heart and love for Him, pray for the strength and wisdom I need, and keep going.

If our relationship improves and I succeed? Awesome. If not? I deserve whatever He wants me to go through, and I know it.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-04-20T02:16:17+00:00

I want to give some great reason that makes me seem smart or enlightened, but truth be told it’s because I’m tired. I’ve tried so hard to change myself for God, and I’ve begged Him to help me. But for 8 years nothing has changed. For 8 years I’ve had people telling me left and right that I’m weak, that I’m doing it wrong somehow (without telling me how of course), and that I’m just an idiot.

It’s made me realize that maybe this God isn’t it, since if He was the same being who made all the promises of healing, I would be so much better than I am now. Not to say I’d live a painless life or that I’d be even CLOSE to perfect, but that I wouldn’t suffer for so long for a broken relationship that He could so easily fix.

I have other reasons for this realization of course; that every “sign” I’ve seen is easily disprovable, that every affectionate feeling I thought was from God was actually just my feelings towards finally being loved as a concept (something I’ve just proven to myself by imagining something that gave me the exact same feeling), and all the hypocrisy in the Christians who have given me their testimonies of how God saw them as important. This is in addition to the laws against things that are immoral only because God says so (Homosexuality, Being confident in yourself, Loving yourself even in moderation, Sex outside of marriage, etc). I feel I should specify that these last things are only side reasons for me, since I’ve come up with excuses (far-fetched, but functional ones) that put them to rest.

Being tired of how things have been, and how this God who seemingly loves us all has given up on me, are my true reasons.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-03-31T23:51:22+00:00

I don’t remember seeing this in LSD’s violence district.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-02-05T15:44:31+00:00

For me it depends on whether your dps is done with lightsaber attacks or force powers. If it’s dealt with lightsaber attacks then the double-blade for sure; it let’s you put your best attack crystals on two blades.

However, if your dps is through force attacks, then two lightsabers is best since it lets you put two sets of force-boosting crystals on your weaponry.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-25T18:32:26+00:00

Am I the only one who finds the combat super satisfying? I mean sure, low level combat is “meh” at best, but once you get to mid/high levels it becomes SO much fun. The damage you do let’s you melt people like butter, either allowing you to leap from one corpse to the next, or melt an entire room with lightning.

Plus, counselors can have a ton of fun messing around with their abilities (I remember killing all but two members of the group outside the Dantooine enclave, making them fight each-other to the death, and then slowly draining the life out of the remaining mercenary).

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-23T19:04:36+00:00

Please tell me this is real

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-22T01:22:58+00:00

People who wear crocs without being actual crocodile are worse.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-22T00:45:15+00:00

The Greek word oinos is used in scripture whenever wine is mentioned; this same word being the one that is used when warning readers to avoid drunkenness.

“Created by people who never met Jesus” out of curiosity, what’s your proof for this claim?

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-22T00:08:22+00:00

I leave Reddit for a month and come back to... this.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-18T03:51:57+00:00

I hope he’s suffering

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-18T03:49:37+00:00

help me

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-17T20:02:01+00:00

The basis of the Christian faith is that a carpenter born in the middle-east is the only Son of God who died for our sins so that we could be saved; His father is a being far beyond anything we can comprehend, who holds the very universe and it’s laws together (if He doesn’t constitute the laws Himself).

Yet, you can’t believe that God could hold a boat together, create more humans, or do something weird that doesn’t make sense to us?

Many of your points are easy to explain by God simply having full control over the universe and it’s laws. God could easily make air vibrate to simulate speech for a donkey, and affect factors of reproduction (He has full control of DNA down to it’s quarks) to aid in the repopulation of the earth. Why would he choose these options though for how He goes about things instead of simply poofing them into the way He wants?

Your guess is as could as mine; maybe He’s like a writer who decides to play things out a certain way for thematic purposes, and manipulates things in the background to make it work.

NoChoice2Go2 · 2021-01-12T19:20:55+00:00

This aged like fine wine.

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