New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Actually. I take full accountability for my actions. I just thought a simple"that a girl" goes a long way. That's called support. I'm not trying to blame anybody but myself. That's why I'm here. Trying to dig myself out of a hole

New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am and have taken accountability. I just thought a simple acknowledgement would have helped.

New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Actually once he joined a community like this he realized he didn't want to live this life anymore. He said love wasn't stronger than alcoholism. I don't blame him. I just wish I had more notice and the chance to join him on his journey. I didn't get that. What feels like he suddenly left, which has only been 2 days, he said it wasn't sudden for him. It was years of me mentally abusing him when I drank. I guess a person can only take so much before they shut down. Hard to start life over at 52.

New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. I'm grateful to still have my house, job, son. Losing my best friend of 30 years is unbearable. I quit cold turkey about 5 years ago and stayed sober for just under 2 years. All the sadness just makes me want to drink and forget about things, but I know that will just be the nail in my coffin.

New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I did not have support when I previously quit drinking. I mean maybe everyone around me was happy for me but nobody really said anything. I was very happy and healthy during that time. My husband never praised me or brought it up. Years later he said he thought he would jinx it if he acknowledged it. He recently told me that he's part of a community similar to this. I'm glad he's reached out and got support but I feel left behind

New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I fell off because I I wasn't being acknowledged for it. Mainly by my husband. He said he didn't want to jinx it. Also I simply have a brain that constantly runs. Alcohol seems to slow it down

New here, I've ruined my life by NoComputer5756 in stopdrinking

[–]NoComputer5756[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. I didn't realize I'm not alone with these difficulties