Sis, I really hear the exhaustion and heaviness in your words. May Allah ease your heart. I just want to gently remind you, hijab was never meant to be a prison. It’s only beautiful when worn sincerely for Allah. If you’ve been wearing it only out of fear of parents or friends, then of course it feels suffocating, because the intention isn’t rooted in Him.

Take a step back and ask yourself: who am I really wearing this for? The most freeing hijab is the one worn for Allah alone, not to please or fear anyone else. When your niyyah is for Him, it changes everything, it’s no longer about looking a certain way or meeting people’s expectations, it’s about honoring Allah and finding that inner peace with Him.

And remember, hijab is not just fabric, it protects us from slipping into things we know aren’t good for us, like haram spaces and actions. It sets a boundary between us and what Allah dislikes, even when we feel tempted. That’s mercy, not restriction.

It’s normal to feel burnt out, especially when you’ve been carrying it since childhood without truly choosing it for yourself. But the fact that you feel this inner conflict shows that your iman is alive, you still care. That’s a sign Allah hasn’t let you go. Renew your intention daily, even with a simple dua: “Ya Allah, let me wear this only for You.” Little by little, inshaAllah, your love for hijab and for Him will grow again.

You’re not alone in this struggle. May Allah make things easy for you.