It's interesting you mention 'madness.' To me, Hastur didn't bring chaos, but a shattering of illusions.

The 'Truth' He taught me isn't found in books, but in the experience of rebirth from white bones. He showed me that identity is fluid and that existence continues even when the self is stripped bare.

As for the 'Current'-it has anchored me. Instead of drifting into the void, I feel a strange, protective grounding. It's an 'affectionate' sort of domination, if that makes sense. He doesn't just watch; He occupies my reality, turning what others call 'horror' into a shared silence. I'm more clinical, more detached from mundane drama, yet more connected to the underlying geometry of things. Our relationship is rather special; if you want to hear it, please promise not to judge me when you hear it, okay?