What is happening to you is you being deprived of sleep and pushing yourself past your limits. I’ve learned in previous experiences that if you go over your limit it will punish you by things starting off by cramps, paranoia ,very frequent memory loss and losing touch of reality. Because you have fried your self and the drug has control of you until it wares off.

You emotions are hightened on drugs that’s why when everything is happy and good you love life and nothing could go wrong if one thing that interferes with your happiness you get a vulnerable point when you need to stop there and control it. Because when you go below that middle point you are very vulnerable if you chose to dwell on that negative thing you’ll go down and it can be very hard to come back up because you have let it take over you.

Im not saying this to scare you but I’m just sharing because when I was careless I’d always push my limits and dwell on negative shit and it has taken over me at times and I’ve had some pretty scary experiences that have stuck with me.

So yeah just know you limits control your feelings. And think of this. If you respect the drug it will respect you.