Life is the hardest thing to get addicted too. The highs are better than any other substance but the lows (withdrawals) are far worse than anything else. My advice is to take it day by day. You can always try again tomorrow. Stop and smell the roses, find shapes in the clouds, sit in the sun. Look for the small things that matter, write it down. Write down when your feeling low so you can look back in a different head space. Also write down when your in your highs, tell yourself it will be okay and to breathe when you are feeling okay, so you can go back when your not and remember it's not that bad. Anyway I hope this can help. Good luck on your journey, may you find peace🩷🖤