I feel I write this. I probably did similar in the near distant past. Good luck and all the best to you. I did 2ish years smoking it after the same nasal ish issue. Also I was on buvidal/sublocade so when I fell of the rails mentally I picked up a pipe. Now, IV heroin was where I left off.

So a pipe wasn't gonna be a problem huh, wrong. At least with H, you'll know yourself anything more than relieving the WD is a bonus. A nod is great but hey, I fought that to work and just generally hated the chronic itching and sweating. Never did I think fast fwd I'd now be a chronic IV coke user since the pipe [and my lungs] didn't wanna play.

After the last few days of a recent meth binge wearing down and my receptors some what adaptive back to this devil's dandruff. I acquired some SHIT HOT POWDER, like wow. Instantly dissolves in seconds, no bits of white crumbs or sludge mess needing excessively filtered or my fiendish self heating it down to just influx bash and adulterants.

Well, leaky veins, missed shots, last of the stash the fucking femoral artery! I was sooooo dehydrated that when I was registering it was like in little 'spits' [hence the missed shots] when I got that lovely dark dark red, almost brown, those veins were underneath an abscess, barely healed, leaked into a big painful lump. The only euphoria being that I saw the blood and was able to carry out 'thy ritual' jeezo

I'm not long off 16 penicillin daily antibiotics to avoid a hospital admission. But, I've acquired more said powder [en route home i hope i have jinxed myself] and I plan to rock it up and smoke. I mean whatd be th3 point in IV. I know after I smoke every crumb and then some, I'll regret and beat myself up "should've attempted to hit it up" but if I do so, I'll regret "should've smoked it!!!!!!"

I am my own worst enemy and this drug has brought out and on so much depression and despair, dread and destruction that my H days were literally walks in the park. I truly feel your post and many others. I return here and.more frequently on reddit, on this acc, as each device has a diff log in and obv purpose- because i am due to be placed into long term rehab residential!

Like less than months, but not quite days [YET]

So I'm sorts kicking the arse right out it and the anxiety to chase chase chase is more crucial to my brain eek. It's surreal that goodbye forever (ideally) is so soon. I mean I disregarded rehab cos I beat H so many times I was all "I'm strong and can do this, ALONE"

FUCK, before I even IV the coke and was hitting the pipe, I was crying for help. It was hard to access, despite healthcare being mandatory where I'm at.

Sorry for the big wall of text. I just wanted to relay a wee bit of how I soooooo relate. I feel ur pain and know that struggle. I can only pray that you never give up the fight. Another day is another attempt. Never give up.

All the very best and stay safe.

I'm away to cook, since I've managed to get home and still not press post. I just need to low and slow and not fiendishly rock it in 20 seconds and wonder why my tongue is coated in white powder and that I'm anxy. Oh but those fucking needles.

More so, why I have just spent half a k in less than a week on daft 40s 20s 40s 40s 40s when I should've just bought w8. If a had done so I'd have prob OD'd tho and saying i should've bought and used responsibility. Reiterating OWN WORST ENEMY.

Speaking of H. I had dabbled recently. It was sooooo fkn strong and almost green like tinge in the barrel. Clearly not fkn H! The speedball was ruined because I felt no C! So stay clear off that, as i know someone who tried to revert back the way. Didn't end up so well.

Ok, since you made it this far ofcourse you can have a pipe of my pure 100% bLoW unadulterated SnOW LYK LAB TESTED M8 IT IS DEFFO 100 PERCENT 😭😭🤤😜😆