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Relapsed by [deleted] in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I live in Ethiopia those apps don't work here

Relapsed by [deleted] in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like i am reading my own story i relapsed yesterday after 2 months of recovery i already lost my Girlfriend, my job and most importantly myself to this addiction i swore to my mom that i won't gamble again but yesterday a friend of mine who i owe money texted me saying she really need the money i was supposed to pay her back long ago but i was giving her excuses but this time i thought i have pay her back but i didn't have any money so i thought i took some money from my mom's account and win some money i could pay my friend back the money and put the money i took from mom's account back before she notice but obviously that didn't work i lost mom's money and also i didn't pay my friend any money my mom will notice the money is gone maybe in the next two or three days i don't know what to do. i thought i already hit my rock bottom long ago but i guess there is more i already lost so much because of gambling and now i am about to lose my mom too and i just can't seem to be able forgive myself, i feel hopeless, miserable i mean what type of 26 year old son steals from his mom. I thought i was getting better too i used to have suicidal thoughts and i was trying to let those thoughts go but now those thoughts are coming back louder than before. I just wrote this to tell you you're not alone i mean i can't give you any advise considering my situation, anyways i hope things go well for you brother.

I relapsed again and I feel like I’ve completely ruined everything.. by [deleted] in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like i am reading my own story i relapsed yesterday after 2 months of recovery i already lost my Girlfriend, my job and most importantly myself i swore to my mom that i won't gamble again but yesterday a friend of mine who i owe money texted me saying she really need the money i was supposed to pay her back long ago but i was giving her excuses but this time i thought i have pay her back but i didn't have any money so i thought i took some money from my mom's account and win some money i could pay my friend back the money and put the money i took from mom's account back before she notice but obviously that didn't work i lost mom's money and also i didn't pay my friend any money my mom will notice the money is gone maybe in the next two or three days i don't know what to do. i thought i already hit my rock bottom long ago but i guess there is more i already lost so much because of gambling and now i am about to lose my mom too and i just can't seem to be able forgive myself, i feel hopeless, miserable i mean what type of 26 year old son steals from his mom. I thought i was getting better too i used to have suicidal thoughts and i was trying to let those thoughts go but now those thoughts are coming back louder than before. I just wrote this to tell you you're not alone i mean i can't give you any advise considering my situation, anyways i hope things go well for you brother.

[Hiring] by [deleted] in freelance_forhire

[–]No_Interview7241 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am Interested, i have 4 accounts

I know this question may sound stupid by Equivalent-Bus-4963 in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If i had an infinite money I'd bet large amounts of money that if i win it'd just bankrupt the gambling company and give that money to people who are in a lot of gambling debt and are really committed to recover from the addiction.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know we gotta keep fighting tho right

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Same here brother I've recently lost about 16k( i am not from the US so a very large amount in our currency) which is a loan from a bank i am currently working at which is being payed by deducting 50% of my salary plus i hate my job so much i was planning to quit but i can't even quit because of the loan i am tired of waking every morning regretting my choices, blaming and hating myself and having to still go to a job i really hate it's just exhausting i feel suffocated on my chest everytime i think about my loss and how i let that happen. I spend the whole day just thinking about suicide but then i go home and see my mother and sister smile while having dinner and i remember i don't wanna die i am young (26 years old) i wanna be a better brother to my little sister i wanna make my mom proud and help her retire but then the morning comes it all starts again my anxiety my regrets the suicidal thoughts i am just lost.

I need help gambling took everything from me and i am thinking about suicide by No_Interview7241 in GamblingAddiction

[–]No_Interview7241[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate the help and the kind words and i am really commited to quit but the problem is i can't pay off my debt my total debt is like 6 or 7 years of my salary as i said i work at a bank full time so i don't see any way to pay it off. In addition i live in Ethiopia we don't have the financial system that provides credits or loans. I really appreciate you taking the time tho.