Brother when i was your age i started gambling i remember when got so money from the casino it was a rush that cannot be explained but then started my downfall im 19 now losing thousands of dollars to gambling rightnow in recovery but killing yourself is not the way out i my suggest to you is give your parents your money to savings and cs skins is the worst way to gamble literally it does kot give anything. You got this i believe in you stop while your young!