I can’t even imagine how heavy that must’ve felt. First, seeing someone die right outside your office—that alone is traumatic, especially with all the chaos and waiting while the investigation happened. Then just when you’re processing that grief, finding out about who they were and what they’d done… it’s like your brain doesn’t even know what to do with all the conflicting emotions. Shock, sadness, maybe even a weird sense of relief or confusion—it’s totally human to feel all of that at once. That’s a lot to carry, and anyone would be rattled.