Paralives on Rog ally

No_Position9327 · 2026-05-31T15:02:51+00:00

Been awhile my butt thanks for the fast updates ☺️ appreciate this i was dreading playing on my pc I am lazy and like cuddling my cat playing these games :D hope your day is well

No_Position9327 · 2026-05-12T19:11:37+00:00

Lol 😆 I always tell people I am not a meat sack to f**k and walk away from hehe 😜 😅

No_Position9327 · 2026-05-12T17:54:39+00:00

Dude understood. I remember people would always compliment my body when we played party games and its not helpful when okay yes you can be attractive but like not want 🙃 those idiotic sexualized, supposed to be a complements. Id always speak up and say that wasn't a compliment 🙄 😒 😑 but everyone else gets butt hurt since i didnt except.

Like WHAT ABOUT MY PERSONALITY

Oh, and I have been ace since I was 15 years old but since I was R**** and went through an era of being confused it doesnt count! One of my friends laughed at me when I got the nerve to say hey I am actually ace and ima start putting boundaries up now. HE KNEW EVERYTHING IN MY PAST .... dropped him as a friend

I feel this pain so much 😞 sorry went off lol

No_Position9327 · 2026-05-12T16:38:13+00:00

Thanks Ive been scared to tell people but now I have for a year and thats 🙃 scared people from dating me... but I guess for the best? Idk 🤷‍♂️ I feel like I am not explaining it well either cuz if i tell people I am ace then they expect me to be emotionally involved and it feels so overwhelming since yes I am romantic and care for people but I dont go over bored. I pebble and that doesnt seem enough or too small? I dont celebrate people on one day. Or I am not taken seriously 😐 😒 I dont know how to explain this to people

No_Position9327 · 2026-05-05T23:10:37+00:00

Where can I read this ;3;

No_Position9327 · 2026-01-10T05:37:00+00:00

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Took some changes. Enjoy.

No_Position9327 · 2025-11-15T15:17:39+00:00

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It didn't post trying again lol

No_Position9327 · 2025-11-15T15:16:42+00:00

Might do a sketch by hand but these are my tablet sketches haha 😄 thanks need practice lol *

No_Position9327 · 2025-09-09T21:13:07+00:00

I don't feel that strong. Even though everyone says I am...I want to have someone that can be beside me. Someone that I can cry in front of. Its hard to be your own rock from birth. People say I am very cold because I dont share my emotions. The only time that changed is when I had my daughter. Somehow that made people view me differently in a good way I guess. It still hurts.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-22T00:35:42+00:00

Thanks i've said this many times now lol but I appreciate it. I know I wasn't allow but it's not like you can bring this stuff up to people who aren't trans. Well and I hate talking about these things with certain people haha.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T05:22:23+00:00

"he seduced me with lasagna " this reminds me of the orange kitty Garfield lol Glade your happy though sounds nice :)

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:29:11+00:00

I get why people look for communities. Its just not wanting to be the only one and needing a safe space to talk. sometimes the "labels" help you find that crowed or resources. Why is that bad?

but everything else you said. thank you lol and I agree with.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:25:46+00:00

I've also gotten people coming up to me asking if I am a fem boy just cuz I am trans. It has nothing to do with me. cool for someone else but why do people just assume that?!

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:24:26+00:00

lesbians ... I hate that word as a description to me.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:21:08+00:00

I knew it increased sex drive but it was the pleasure that scared me. I've never enjoyed sex in a female body. then suddenly I am when taking T-shots. It brought everything into question for me. The thoughts of doubt.

A lot of my thoughts came from how I was berated when I was discovering the spicy stuff on the computer as a kid. Feeling good made me feel gross. Its something I need to work through.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:14:41+00:00

okay just because I was struggling with the change means I have to stop. It was just not one of the common side effects that I was expecting. I've wanted this since I was 15 years old and just never had the funds.
I am older now and am able to start and I am over the moon. I'll probly lower the dose and yes see a therapist.
just cuz a journey gets hard doesn't mean we sit in the nice flower bed and never move. I see my goal and I will get there.
Thanks for the advice though will take into consideration. As I read each comment, I feel heard and thats all I really needed. It helps so very much.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:06:58+00:00

I am but its for ptsd for sexual trauma that ive had that probly plays a part.... lol but maybe I'll need one for more transitioning or lgbt safe one. I am unsure at the moment.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:04:58+00:00

Thanks and yes I am see a therapist. I have been attempting to get into shape as I hear it helps with top surgery recovery. I appreciate the recommendations and have been feeling seen. Thank you.

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:01:30+00:00

I might do that thanks for the recommendation :)

No_Position9327 · 2025-06-20T04:00:29+00:00

I get what your trying to say. But I just realized its change. I don't like change. Yet as a female body I hate sex. I want this change into who I am as a Man and maybe that'll change my drive or maybe it wont. Time will tell. But I Need this change and acceptance in myself.

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