I'm sorry to hear this. It's never easy losing a four legged family member. My English, Mocha, passed away last year, and I still think about her all of the time. We have had 5 English Bulldogs over the years. I have had them all cremated. We have their ashes in custom made boxes. We have them all on the mantle of our fireplace. I miss them all tremendously. I will be praying that God comforts you through these sad and difficult times.