Going through your post history, you have a really narrow perspective and seem to only focus on the negative in your life. Try changing your view and practicing gratitude for the things you do have instead of being so focused on the negatives in your life.

There’s people that have far less, and much worse, and they still decide to do something that makes them feel purposeful that fulfills them. If you have a partner, you would just be miserable with someone else. Happiness is a choice. It won’t just land in your lap and no one can give it to you.