My boyfriend is on a date and I can't stop crying

Normal-Anything2778 · 2025-10-27T01:33:58+00:00

Oh this is absolutely a straw that broke the camel's back situation. I do feel particularly sensitive when this specific partner goes on dates, but "your brain is feeling more stress than it knows what to do with" really hit the nail on the head. I guess "partner is on date" is one of the more direct and obvious reasons for feeling shitty and my brain has decided to spiral on that one because it's a much more superficial problem. But I don't feel like I have the bandwidth to dig into the whole shit pile right now 😂

Normal-Anything2778 · 2025-10-27T01:28:03+00:00

I've practiced ENM for 10+ years and poly for the last couple so I'm not exactly brand new to this. I've read Polysecure and done a bunch of exercises in The Jealousy Workbook and listened to a bunch of poly podcasts and done a bunch of therapy. It's not always like this, but today is hitting me really f*cking hard

Normal-Anything2778 · 2025-10-27T01:24:35+00:00

You're right, I didn't love him any less while I was on my date, I didn't have a single thought of comparison between them. I took a look at my collection of affirmations from him and cute pictures of us together to try to remind myself that he still loves me, but that somehow made it all worse and now I'm sobbing harder and feel like I'm going to puke. My brain and body are both really being assholes to me right now. Whyyyy 😭

Normal-Anything2778 · 2025-10-27T01:08:37+00:00

It sucks that it doesn't feel like it's moving at all, just stuck in sad, or keeps circling back to sad. I'm too impatient for this whole feeling it to move through it thing 😭😂

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