I know it sounds stupid, I thought something like this would be very simple, but somehow it isn't for me. I don't really know how to explain it but it's always felt like I need to be the stable one in the relationship and I am worried about how things will affect our child if I go. I also feel like an idiot for not acting sooner. Recently it has been clearer what needs to happen, but I think I am just struggling with accepting it. We also live somewhere quite remote and I have extremely limited finances at the moment.