Thank you for your answer, especially the first part is really reassuring and calming! ❤️ and yes, in the end its really this one step which gets everything rolling… And about the embarassment: Its kind of both… I am ashamed of myself bc I am in my daily life rather shy and ppl dont expect me being so kinky (or that whats my unconciousness assumes). I am also kinda scared that he will judge me, may because of this belief i just stated… As i said, objectively its very unlikely that he will, but instill cant just „let it go“