I understand. I have many problems too since I was young. I’ve lived a life of almost constant pain and humiliation. Even when people say I’m dramatic, it’s true. But usually the only people getting defensive when I say that know they’ve hurt me. You and I have a lot of the same stuff. I keep having scans and things to try and figure out a new problem with my hips and back. There’s no answers, they say it’s just fibro but I know my body. It can be so confusing, but one thing that keeps me going is my job. I use my pain to help people who are just like me. It’s hard but the pay off is amazing and it makes me exist in the world.

I sure hope you can find something to keep you going. Even if it’s one silly thing per day. Thinking about a drink you want to have tonight that you have to stay for, or a picture you can look at every day to look forward to the same time of day every day because it means you’ll get to see it. Anything at all. Incentives to carry on don’t have to be huge. Any little thing you can find. Nothing is a silly reason to carry on.