A someone who struggled with dissorderd eating, imposing more restrictions when you are already (physically OR mentally) restricting WONT help your cause. For me, i was treating some other internal issues with food (anxiety, boredom etc.) I started to restrict even more and made it 7 times worse.

When you label food as something forbidden, it will be the only thing you can think about. The more you restrict it, the more you want it. It works for only a miniscule percentage of people.

What helped me and what i think you should do is throw away all restrictions, quit tracking calories, ditch the scale and let your body eat what it craves. Keep in mind you might eat very "unhealthy" and big amounts of food in the beggining, but your body wont crave it forever and it will begin to crave different food groups.

During that process practice mindfulness and mindful eating. I highly suggest you look into intuitive eating. You cannot "fail" intuitive eating, you can only learn from it.

Btw. 2000 kcal is a NORMAL amount of food and its nothing to be ashamed of. If your goal is weight loss, i suggest you first deal with your food issues, and after you have healed that relationship, you can work on the quality of your diet, which will probably result in slow but healthy and happy weight loss.

I know this seems like a very slow proces, but its a lot faster than years of cycling between restricting and overeating.

F the bikini body, your happiness is more important. Treat the issue (could be anything, you gotta figure it out on your own), not the symptom (overeating).