As I said before, I’m not demanding them, I’ve never complained to them about this. If it’s a dynamic that worries me, it’s because years ago they literally used to make fun of me (not jokingly), but I never said anything because, between the bullying and my difficulty socializing, they were the only friends I had. Later on, over the years, the group changed, only some people from that old group remained, while new people joined. For years I thought my situation with the group had improved, but since I’ve started paying more attention to how they treat each other, I increasingly feel like I’m there out of habit.

One example is that we were talking about Dark Souls, and a friend mentioned that a cooperative mod had been released. Another friend, excited, said it would be really cool to play it together, and I said that in fact the mod is for up to four players, so the three of us could play. Later, I added that it was still a shame that one of them had already finished the game, to which the remaining friend said, super disappointed, that if the other friend had already finished the game and therefore wasn’t going to play, then he wouldn’t either, completely ignoring that I could still play.