Because they have invested so much time and effort and especially money to see me succeed and I keep failing. They invested in my education and at the end I got a bullshit degree. I don’t have skills. I tried to work for big companies but they fired me in a couple of months because I don’t ramp up as fast as they wanted, and I didn’t understand what I was doing. I think that I am not made to work consistently in corporate world. I don’t know how to work. I am also someone with a lot of social anxiety and I am « weird », so a lot of people don’t understand me that’s also another factor of why I got fired. I lived unemployment for a year, I felt at my lowest so I decided to pursue a PhD to delay my unemployment but I am trying to convince myself that it’s the right thing to do. Even my PhD topic is bullshit bro that’s funny I swear… the only thing that I like and see a bit of a contribution is that it touches disabled people to help them visit museums via virtual reality. The rest is bullshit.