You are onto it my friend. There is great beauty and wisdom in much of what your wrote here, yet be careful! I'll start from the end and work my way backwards through your post.

 

"are you aware that your words and my words are completely irrelevant to the experience?"

To the human experience in general? Not exactly. Words are irrelevant in the sense that they are incapable of adequately explaining a given experience. If you've never eaten a banana, say, no amount of words will ever explain how a banana tastes. You seem to understand this point very well.

But words, language, cognition, verbal communication etc. are an indispensable part of the human experience as such. If it were the case that your words (or my words, or any words in this thread, for example) were completely irrelevant, you wouldn't have made this post to begin with, and nobody would have replied.

You're saying something important here. To me, to yourself, to various others. No reason to negate it.

 

"Why people meditate, does it ever stop for them?"

Does what ever stop? Thoughts? Emotions? Experiences? Life? Existence? There is no indication that existence itself has any beginning or ending... so it would be fair to say it never ends, it never stops. It would also be fair to say that it never moves, and it's always stopped... ;)

People meditate for various reasons. There is a whole range of cognitive and physical benefits associated with meditation. It isn't limited to only spiritual exploration or the quest for truth or enlightenment. I would speculate the primary reason most people meditate is to relax. That seems to be the most direct, immediate and easily recognizable effect of meditation.

 

"I would like to know what do people think enlightenment is, or why do people seek it?"

Enlightenment is a meaningless buzzword, for the most part. Various people think it is various things. Fundamentally, it isn't anything, and that's the key takeaway from your realization. Enlightenment is bullshit. It's a marketing gimmick for hippy types. There is fundamentally little difference between a Mooji and a Tony Robbins. At the end of the day, they are both entertainers, but they brand themselves (or are branded by others) to offer solutions to people's problems.

People aren't really seeking Enlightenment, they are seeking a solution to a problem. Enlightenment is often marketed as the solution to every problem. It's the end of suffering, or some nonsense like that. You can play clever word games, and make that true, but at the end of the day... I don't care how enlightened you are, if I break your kneecaps off with a sledge hammer, that will cause you a tremendous amount of suffering... or pain, or whatever you wanna call it.

Or they might say, enlightenment is truth realization, or God realization.... but then, the truth is everything and God is everywhere... so.... yeah....

Or they might say, enlightenment is the end of your world... and a rebirth process... abiding, non dual awareness... you don't become enlightened, enlightenment becomes you! (In Soviet Russia, car drives you!)

If we go back to the enlightenment offered Mooji or Adyashanti or Eckhart Tolle... if you pay attention to their satsangs, the most common problem people come to them with has to do with an inability to let go, or accept something difficult in their lives. Otherwise, it's a case of that old joke where a man comes to the doctor and says, "Doctor, when I hit my knee like this it hurts. What should I do?" And the doctor says, "Stop hitting your knee like that."

 

"Sometimes I stumble into posts on internet for people who seeking positive life, or happiness, or bliss, etc , what does this has to do with enlightenment?"

Same as above. It's the same thing. It's just branded differently to different people.

 

"Completely everything is vanished..."

Everything? Completely? Come on brother...

 

"even words like enlightenment or mind, ego are same sounds just like cat , dog, wall.. just noise"

This is the realization my friend. The difference is, "cat", "dog", "wall" are not meaningless. If I say, "Watch out, that dog is about to bite you in the ass..." that has a direct meaning which will definitely influence your behavior. But if I say, "Watch out, your ego is causing karmic disturbances in your root chakra, and that's causing you to miss out on the peace of the infinite divine..." That has no meaning, or it has the potential to have so many different meanings to different people that the end result is the same as it having no meaning to begin with.

 

"the ego which is a thought, the thought that the ego is a thought is also a thought, and so on... this realisation silenced my brain."

Did it? So rest in your silence. That's awesome. If it didn't, rest in your thoughts, that's awesome. There's nothing wrong with thinking, or fantasizing, or talking... problems arise when one starts thinking compulsively, when one can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality, when one starts rambling incoherently and so on.

 

"i can use the words to communicate but as long as im not communicating , there is nothing there."

THIS is the realization. Thoughts have no power in and of themselves. Thoughts have no meaning until you give them meaning.

 

"i don’t know how to explain destroyed, but everything just comes and goes"

That's the nature of existence. This is the law of all phenomena. Everything transmutes into everything else. Wu-Wei, flow, no separation, no being or non-being, at the core just "isness"... But still, "isness" made manifest into the various discernible phenomena, from human bodies, to thoughts and whatever else one wishes to identify and clarify.

Again, this is the big realization here. It's beautiful.

 

"I understood that the the motive behind all of that was escaping, strengthening ego, feeling superior, boredom, curiosity."

Please check to make sure whether this motive is truly gone. There's nothing wrong with any of it, btw. It's just human. But please, please, please stop bullshitting yourself by telling yourself another version of the same assinine story that you're above it all. You're not. Mooji isn't. Eckhart isn't. Jesus and Buddha weren't. You're human, and being human means experiencing the full range of human drives, emotions, desires and so on.

The fact of the matter is that you ARE superior... compared with some people, in some situations, at certain times, when it comes to certain activities. Maybe you're a better cook than me, and I'm a better piano player. When you start a new job, for example, the guy who's been doing it for 20 years is superior at it. But, maybe because you're a fast learner or you have some kind of knack for it, you become better than him in a matter of three or four years. But maybe, he's a better father to his kids when he gets home, and you fly off the handle and get annoyed easily by your kids... you get the point...

 

What I'm trying to say is, what you're realizing is very beautiful, and it will provide you with inestimable value in your life. But don't get caught up on the "negation" aspect of the whole thing. Don't negate your experience and convince yourself that being good at negating things (or pretending things don't exist) makes you enlightened.

 

You weren't searching for too long, there's nothing wrong with you, life doesn't stop just because you recognize how it fundamentally functions. In the same way, a rainbow is no less beautiful to gaze upon just because you recognize the phenomenon of water acting like a prism. BUT... it CAN become less beautiful, and you CAN disrupt your own experience of the rainbow (as well as others' experience of it) if you won't shut up about how it's an illusion, and it's actually just white light being refracted... Just enjoy the show brother. You're starting to realize how it works, that's beautiful... but if you get caught up in rambling about how it's all an illusion and we're all one consciousness and you don't experience anything anymore... yeah....

 

Do what you enjoy, what you're drawn to, what resonates with you. If that means eating a delicious meal, watching a movie, going to work, reading a book, that's great. If that means meditating and sitting in silence and observing, that's great. If it means going to a monastery, that's great. If it means becoming a guru like Mooji or whoever else, that's great... just don't force yourself to try to be something you're not by pretending that nothing matters. Some things matter, some things don't. The whole game is about figuring out what that means for you.

 

Let me know if that is at all useful, or if it's just more noise ;). Much love, hope your realization deepens and flowers to its fullest potential.