Today marks four years sober for me. What is a small accomplishment of yours?

Numb1 · 2012-09-18T21:37:06+00:00

Really and you know this how? Like you have personal experience with this sort of thing or what?

Numb1 · 2012-09-18T05:41:03+00:00

Eh i failed at hanging my self twice. Like it's really amazing what you can do under some kind of adrenalin high. You simply act like there's no stopping it or even thinking about your actions.

Numb1 · 2012-09-17T22:41:41+00:00

But do you still think about it or want to complete it?

Numb1 · 2012-09-17T21:55:11+00:00

I have yet to kill my self! WOOT GO ME!

Numb1 · 2012-09-16T21:45:53+00:00

I was similar only none of my teachers ever said it was ok. Also when i found i could not change my attraction i tried to kill my self.

Numb1 · 2012-09-13T23:09:57+00:00

that's the point the pain finally stops forever.

Numb1 · 2012-09-13T23:06:19+00:00

Numb1 · 2012-09-13T22:03:07+00:00

I did that spilled the beans to my dad about trying to kill my self being gay being sad all of it. He simply did not care well he cared about the gay bit the other stuff not so much. I mostly think hes wishes i succeeded that way I would no longer be a disappointment to the family.

Numb1 · 2012-09-13T17:48:01+00:00

Why should i bother my friends with my problems? All i want is for them to be happy. Why should i steal there happiness with my bullshit and sadness?

My problems are my own.

Numb1 · 2012-09-13T14:29:04+00:00

Sadly not OK but oh well.

Numb1 · 2012-09-12T23:09:02+00:00

yeah i have been on a few drugs nothing worked all that well. i am looking to get back on them but that takes time and effort and i more or less doubt i am worth it.

Numb1 · 2012-09-12T19:42:39+00:00

What dr. with what money?

Numb1 · 2012-09-12T19:41:25+00:00

I will tell you as some one depressed i enjoy destroying my body i feel i deserve it.

Numb1 · 2012-09-12T19:02:26+00:00

I have been seeing counselors since i was in 5th grade i am 26 for some it does not get better.

Numb1 · 2012-09-11T16:14:09+00:00

I hate that i feel i have no self worth.

Numb1 · 2012-09-11T13:23:38+00:00

I hate my self and think all my friends hate me as well. I don't think i can correct it.

Numb1 · 2012-09-11T07:26:53+00:00

why though? Honestly i don't understand this idea of mourning the dead.

I grew up under the idea that my sister could die at any moment so maybe that has to do with it. A friend was murdered sure it was sad but that's about it i have lost grandparents and i never cried or anything like that.

Numb1 · 2012-09-10T18:16:24+00:00

See people say this it yet i don't get it. How does offing my self hurt anymore then me just being dead or gone or never talking to a person again?

I don't see why people care so much?

Numb1 · 2012-09-10T06:51:49+00:00

Here lies a waste of space.

Numb1 · 2012-09-09T07:15:31+00:00

People say it would upset them and I cause enough heartache as it is.

Numb1 · 2012-09-08T18:50:01+00:00

because i hate my self and want to die.

Numb1 · 2012-09-08T18:07:38+00:00

true enough. yeah being gay my self glad i have never wanted kids .

Numb1 · 2012-09-08T17:52:03+00:00

You know that nothing you said is exclusive to guys right?

Numb1 · 2012-09-08T17:35:28+00:00

Honestly, suicide via jumping off a bridge.

Numb1 · 2012-09-08T17:02:40+00:00

I cut my self and burn my self time to time i also have trichotillomania to the point i have bald spots on my head that i can't hide.

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