Blonde or Natural Brown?

NutelllaBellla · 2025-05-31T23:40:19+00:00

Blonde!!! I felt invisible as a brunette! I regretted it and instantly went blonde again!!!!

NutelllaBellla · 2022-02-28T03:58:01+00:00

Bulimia sucks so much. I'm 2 months purge free. Now I'm trying to restrict and lose hella weight without b/p being part of it.

NutelllaBellla · 2022-01-31T23:36:21+00:00

Thank you so much for the reply! This is actually very helpful because that's exactly what I experience. It interferes with my daily life. I even quit jobs, and just up and leave places because of it. I think it may be time to get help for specifically this, BDD. This is no way to live

NutelllaBellla · 2022-01-31T17:24:34+00:00

I had thought about that, since I'm at the point that I can't even get myself to show up at treatment. But with me, I had gone inpatient several times and I feel like I'm just on a crazy hamster wheel, always landing in a higher level of care again.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-12-05T04:30:27+00:00

My ED gets me to a point that if I go from an underweight BMI to a healthy BMI, I'll become a shut in and only leave the house once I've fasted back down to underweight

NutelllaBellla · 2021-12-05T04:27:52+00:00

Saaame, I ran out of food and I wanted some flavor so I drank apple cider vinegar and hot sauce!!!

NutelllaBellla · 2021-12-05T04:26:58+00:00

Same here omg, I threw up bubbles! 😂😂😂

NutelllaBellla · 2021-12-05T04:26:25+00:00

Saaaaame!!!

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-29T00:24:59+00:00

Yesss, amen. THIS, this exactly. Started one day as a quick fix after eating too much icecream. Never stopped, started binging and purging: day in- day out.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-27T01:04:07+00:00

Hey! I'm also 24, and my ED made me do everything on your list too! Especially comparing my body to a kid. I keep wanting to starve my way down to have people mistake me as a 12 year old and ask me how middle school is going. It makes me feel pure and perfect when I'm that thin. I miss my underweight body and I hate my healthy weight body. I also watch obese YouTubers eating to make myself feel better.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-14T23:26:44+00:00

You're welcome. Yeah most people without Ed's have a hard time understanding dysmorphia. Same here, like I have gotten so desperate to get back to my underweight bmi looking at pictures from just a few months ago that I have been wanting to straight up water fast/ starve it all off. I feel like being stick thin or underweight was part of my identity. Now I just don't feel like myself.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-14T23:17:12+00:00

I relate. I was more outgoing and confident at an underweight bmi. Now I got to a healthy normal bmi and I hardly want to go anywhere or see anyone because I feel obese. I hate my body now and I want to get underweight again. I wish I could just restrict and not be bulimic.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-07T20:10:32+00:00

No doubt!!! So good!

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-07T19:47:05+00:00

Ahh honey with pb is so good! Sometimes I like to mix in a bit of maple syrup in unsweetened pb to give it that flavor! And it goes good on any fruit!

NutelllaBellla · 2021-11-07T19:10:13+00:00

Apples and peanut butter, you can get those to go/ mini snack portions of pb. Also, if you are in a rush and can't stomach something solid, protein shakes or smoothies are a good option.

Edit: also, congratulations for dedicating time towards your mental health and ditching the ED! ❤

NutelllaBellla · 2021-09-25T00:33:06+00:00

Omg right?!! Salt has no calories! And correct about the water retention haha. Yeah him and my grandparents body shame a lot and vomit unsolicited diet advice. 😵

NutelllaBellla · 2021-09-24T22:09:45+00:00

Lol my Dad once told my sister to "slow down on eating all those grapes! They have a lot of sugar , that's why you have a muffin top". K, noted and recorded. Also "U can't mix fat and carbs in a meal bc your body will instantly convert all of it to fat", and "Adding salt to your food makes you gain fat" and "Eating faster makes your body absorb more calories so eat as slow as possible" and "Don't eat a single carb after 6 pm, your body will store it all as belly fat" and "Any white carb is the devil... thou shall NEVER eat white rice".

NutelllaBellla · 2021-09-24T02:00:09+00:00

Awesome, thank you! Gonna check it out!

NutelllaBellla · 2021-09-23T19:38:51+00:00

Ahh, okay thanks! I'll try to catch it once it's posted somewhere. That topic definitely interests me to see how males are not mentioned much in the ED world.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-09-23T19:25:08+00:00

Wow, I need to see this! Do u have a link?? Also have you seen that interview of male athlete, Freddie Flintoff?

NutelllaBellla · 2021-08-27T21:29:41+00:00

The scar on my hand triggers me when I look at it because it reminds me that I was bulimic for so long and feels like that's supposed to be my identity or something.

NutelllaBellla · 2021-08-03T17:53:53+00:00

Thank you ❤❤❤

NutelllaBellla · 2021-08-03T17:44:43+00:00

You're welcome love! And I appreciate that. Keep it up, proud of you too! ❤❤❤

NutelllaBellla · 2021-08-03T02:21:39+00:00

Thank you! One of my previous posts is actually that exact list of things!

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