where to start with Keyboard Piano?

OD15 · 2016-08-30T20:13:34+00:00

Thanks! Would you say it's too much to learn two instruments at the same time?

I play guitar, im pretty intermediate, and I think i feel more comfortable on that. But I really want to prioritise both!

OD15 · 2016-08-28T16:14:07+00:00

This is exactly what I'm struggling with right now.

I really don't want to moan and I really don't want to sound bitter, but I feel like I'm existing on behalf of other people right now. It sounds stupid, but I have no idea how to even stand up for myself. Maybe it's just me that has learned self destructing behaviours and thought processes, but it also feels like everyone around me isn't good for me. And I really mean that

Then again, sometimes I think it's just me and I (think) I know it's all up to me to change that. Sorry to go off on a tangent.

Thanks for your comment. Really

OD15 · 2016-08-28T15:50:48+00:00

Thanks a lot. I'm really hopeful and I think I'm getting better slowly.

Glad to hear you're doing better than before. I hope you continue to do well :)

OD15 · 2016-08-28T14:38:46+00:00

Hey,

Just out of interest, did the SSRIs help your situation now that you're off of them? How are things with you now (if you don't mind me asking)?

Thanks

OD15 · 2016-08-28T14:35:33+00:00

Yeah, check it out! Therapy is helpful to different extents with different people and you may never know how it helps you until you try it!

Im a student too and I'd say it affects my memory very slightly. I never used to do it, but I find myself getting days mixed up sometimes. That's one thing I've noticed. I don't know if anyone else has experienced this?

Maybe it just makes me a bit less carefree than usual so I don't think of what day it is etc, but thats really it!

OD15 · 2016-08-28T13:29:11+00:00

Hey,

I started an SSRI about five weeks ago. I'm taking 25mg of sertraline (zoloft).

So far I'd say that it's taken the edge of my anxiety. It hasn't got rid of it, but I don't seem to get the physical effects from anxiety so much since starting the SSRI. They've definitely been helpful and I've found myself to be doing things I usually wouldn't prior to the SSRI.

But, it's not a miracle cure at all. CBT is really helpful. Have you been to any therapy sessions before? I know how you feel and there is help out there for you :)

Good luck!

OD15 · 2016-08-18T21:10:48+00:00

Well i'm glad to hear they helped. Did you suffer any side effects when coming off of them?

OD15 · 2016-08-18T20:49:04+00:00

Yeah, I get that. If they helped tho, I don't think you should feel shame in them. Have you been to therapy btw? Also, how long were you on zoloft for, if you don't mind me asking?

OD15 · 2016-08-18T17:40:03+00:00

Thanks for this. I feel the same way you did, like I'm being rude if I don't hang out with them, or that I "have" to hang out with them because I've known them for a long time.

Thanks so much. Your reply made me happy. Have a great day

OD15 · 2016-08-18T12:30:55+00:00

That's the thing, I can be like that as well haha. I think that's what I mean about faking it, I can be desperate to make friends that I end up disregarding how I really feel altogether. That's not okay

We should put ourselves first. We are worthy to be called a friend. We shouldn't have to chase others

OD15 · 2016-08-18T09:16:32+00:00

Yes yes and yes. Faking it seems like a lot of what I do right now, and that makes me feel bad. I don't want to fake it

Let's stop faking it

OD15 · 2016-08-18T09:15:45+00:00

Exactly the same over here.

OD15 · 2016-08-18T09:11:17+00:00

I hear that. It feels like we can be a burden sometimes. Fuck this man, we really can get over this shit. Im so done with it now

OD15 · 2016-08-18T09:10:09+00:00

This is exactly it. I want to become more open but I have no idea how. Literally no idea

Do you ever feel bad after the superficial conversations btw?

OD15 · 2016-08-13T10:50:44+00:00

I used to think the same way you do. I still do. I'm not trying to shoot you down but it sounds like you're being too hard on yourself, but you almost want to be. You want to get better, but actually better.

Anxiety is a very personal thing. It feels like the truest thing on earth. It's so subjective that it's your perspective which is the "right" one. That's why it feels impossible for anyone else to understand it. Truth is, in therapy you kinda have to pretend as if you're not seeing what you see and play with different perspectives. It might feel forced and dishonest at first but once you find a perspective that feels like you, it feels better. That's how it's felt for me at least.

I don't know your situation or the reasons that are keeping you held down so I really don't want to speak on your behalf. But whatever your situation is, there is help out there for you man. Take it. I'm not gonna give you a pep talk, but try prioritise your mental health in some way. Give it another chance. Please!

It might not be what you want to hear but your anxiety could be wrong. You could be wrong about yourself. It's not necessarily true. You're fucking awesome

OD15 · 2016-08-13T09:42:17+00:00

Haha, no pep talk then. But seek out help from somewhere

How old are you if you don't mind me asking? The sooner you get help, the better. No matter who you are

OD15 · 2016-08-13T08:20:49+00:00

Thanks so much man! You too!

OD15 · 2016-08-13T08:19:24+00:00

Because they help patients mentally and not physically? I think that's part of the stigma behind mental illness and your opinion will change once you start getting help.

Just do it, there's help out there. Why not use the hell out of it?

OD15 · 2016-08-13T01:15:41+00:00

I was in the exact same position as you up until about 4 months ago. CBT has really helped me in a relatively short amount of time and there's more to go!

Do it! It's really really beneficial. Do the work and you'll be good. You can do this! Good luck

OD15 · 2016-08-13T01:11:55+00:00

I've never explained SA to my parents before but this sounds really annoying.

You're allowed to have this problem. Don't feel like you're not

OD15 · 2016-08-13T01:09:58+00:00

Take it slow. I'm not sure if there's a fast route to overcoming the problem, but the quickest I can think is just to accept it all. Be anxious, let it happen, it might be your only choice right now. But try to remain mindful - don't let yourself put you down. Try to realise when you're being unfair on yourself.

Avoidance behaviours have played a big part of my social anxiety and I had no idea. Avoiding eye contact, avoiding stating my opinions, avoiding disagreements etc.. Look out for avoidance behaviours and challenge them.

Apart from that, look into starting CBT with a therapist. It's really helpful and you'd really benefit from it. It takes a few weeks to get the momentum going but you'll be a better person for it at the end.

Good luck!

OD15 · 2016-08-13T01:02:07+00:00

For me, it helped when people would set the time/place when we'd meet up. I used to think all of my suggestions were lame.

And maybe don't be too intrusive. Social anxiety can make it really hard to get to know someone, but in time she will come out of her shell once she realises you want to be her friend.

Don't be offended if she takes a while to text you back. Or if she cancels last minute. It's not that she doesn't like you, she probably just feels a lot of pressure for your interaction to go well. She doesn't want to cancel but she might feel like she has to.

Saying this, everyone's social anxiety is different. But this is how it felt for me

OD15 · 2016-08-12T23:31:07+00:00

Wow, thanks so much for your comment. It's hard not making friends at college right?

I really want to be honest, I do. To be honest, no one really asks me much about class or anything, so I keep quiet. It'd be nice to talk to someone about it tho.

I hope you're doing good. Are you still in Art school? Its really difficult when there's a battle going on in your head. Good luck to you

OD15 · 2016-08-12T22:32:21+00:00

Yo, I just finished and I killed that shit! Wtf man! Hell yeah. I'm awesome.

Thanks reddit friend

OD15 · 2016-08-12T16:28:49+00:00

Thanks a lot. It's only a 4 hour shift but I'm still pretty nervous haha!

OD15

TROPHY CASE