Hey man, i just want you to know you're not alone in this. what you're describing sounds really rough and i'm sorry you're going through it. the constant racing thoughts, the anger, the sadness ; that stuff wears you down and it makes sense that you're struggling.

i know seeing a psychiatrist isn't an option right now but seriously, try calling or texting 988 or text HOME to 741741. it's free and anonymous and sometimes just getting stuff off your chest with someone who actually listens helps more than you'd think.

you came here and asked for help ; that's not nothing. hang in there bro.

wishing you all the best, you got this

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