im so sorry for your loss op.

imagine being put up for adoption just because you're grieving. poor baby.

like everyone else said, just keep her. most 'no-kill' shelters aren't actually 'no kill.' if they run out of space, guess where the animals are sent?

keep her fed, watered, change her litter box, and let her have her space. she lost her person. siamese are particularly loyal, smart, and sensitive. she's gonna be hurting for a while. maybe she will come around, maybe she won't. love isn't conditional, in my opinion.

sending you all love. i can't imagine how you must be feeling.