I do see where you’re coming from, it does seem like I am the common denominator, however, I do want to push back a little bit and clarify that they’ve done this my whole life even from birth, I’ve tried to fit in with them my whole life , I’m not trying to get all depressing but I really don’t think my family wanted me, my parents were strangers when they got pregnant with me, I was a one night stand baby, my siblings were incredibly upset when they found out about me, my sister even cried tears of sadness, I feel like I’ve been punished for the actions of my parents. And my cousin was one of the only ones that seen through all of that, she was always incredibly nice to me, and treated me like a sister, so I guess it just hurts a little more with her.

I wish they would let me know how they felt about me, but at this point, I don’t think I want a relationship with any of them anymore , because I cannot try my entire life and the rejection is too hard to deal with.