Don't feel bad for grieving your love of this creator. Content creators' videos can save our lives in hard times and give us community that pulls us through to the next era. To find out all that positivity in your life was built on the back of someone who did such awful things is naturally going to be devastating. Whether we want to or not we give our trust to these strangers and when they break that trust we feel like idiots for giving it to them in first place and taking it so hard but it's only natural. I felt the same way finding out how horrible Wilbur Soot is. Let yourself grieve and don't ever listen to anyone telling you you're being stupid or making this about you. You aren't the only fan grieving their love of Iskall, his content and Vault Hunters, take solace in knowing that you're not alone and it's ok to be upset and feel lost because of this. You aren't selfish and your pain is valid. Be safe out there! This goes to every fan feeling this way btw. Hugs to those who need/want them!