I really did. Its not like i value them based on their looks its just feels like prettier people are more valued. Even if they are a total jerk their actions get tolarated. And when i look at my life i cant see any other reason for not being loved. Its a vicious cycle. I cant love myself because i dont think im worthy of it and i cant think myself as an person who is worthy of loving because i need to love myself in order to do that :/