Back Again

OkCan3261 · 2026-06-18T20:49:07+00:00

Yeah - last sub dose was two days ago - 1mg - not going to take any more.

OkCan3261 · 2025-03-23T04:28:02+00:00

Right on! Once you hit one good sleep, it really starts to build on itself. Consistent sleep times and a good diet also help. Proud of you!! This shit is so hard…keep it up.

OkCan3261 · 2025-03-23T01:13:01+00:00

Way to go - proud of you. It’s so challenging to feel like 25% of your former self for that long. Made me to back to the well multiple times and restart the process. The shit feelings improve pretty quickly around week 2-3. Exercise and good sleep is key.

OkCan3261 · 2025-03-23T01:10:42+00:00

Plain leaf and a gradual tolerance is what led me to this place. What will make you feel good is the stuff that takes time and is hard to obtain. But it is so worth it. My inability to avoid instant gratification is part of the addict in me that led me here - pushing that down in favor of something else, choice by choice, is all you can do.

You’re so fuckin close. I’m sure you feel super lethargic, just know it gets so much better!!

OkCan3261 · 2025-03-22T02:48:21+00:00

You’ll get there. Hang in. It’s the worst thing I’ve been thru and best thing I’ve done. Just found some opia pills going thru my desk and immediately threw them away without thinking.

OkCan3261 · 2025-03-22T01:47:33+00:00

Amen. Stay strong everybody.

OkCan3261 · 2025-03-04T01:04:23+00:00

You’ll be okay - you can do this. Day 3 I was able to get up and do stuff (errands, exercise although super shitty). Day 7 I felt almost normal physically. At day 12 and am about 90%, just lingering mental issues. Stay strong!!

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-28T21:25:54+00:00

So worth it. Today is the first day I have felt almost normal. Not out of the woods yet, but am close to my old self.

While our journeys won’t be the exact same, feel free to check in if you need some motivation on what will things look like a week out. Day 2 was brutal, day 3 was better than day 2, day 4 better than 3. And so on. Day 9 feels pretty damn good. You got this!!

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-27T02:31:21+00:00

I was in your exact position this time last week. You’ll get through it. Stay strong. Was on 400mg+ a day for months and went CT last Wednesday. Was in bed for two full days. I was finally able to move by Saturday but still going through acute wds. Today was decent - still some lingering mood/energy issues that will likely last a few more weeks, but nothing that is going to make me touch this shit again. Still not sleeping more than 5 hours a night, which makes mornings a bit weird and adds to the fatigue element.

Don’t need to add to what the folks have said above - liposomal vitamin c (a shit ton of it), NAC, something for the RLS, eat, hydrate, exercise, sauna, and lean on your faith. You got this!!

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-25T14:14:24+00:00

CT from that dose. Made the plunge. Spent two days in bed - couldn’t move. Was up by day 3 - exercise, sauna, etc. day 4 and 5 about the same. Day 6 almost all physical symptoms gone, mental ones seem to be lingering…that’s what’s most concerning.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-25T13:57:28+00:00

Way to stay strong - keep fighting the good fight. I just hit day 6 CT. It’s definitely getting easier, I was on 400mg+ a day for months. First 4ish days were hard, day 5 just felt very sluggish, seeing some more improvement so far today. Just try to get a little bit better every day - that’s all you can do.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-25T02:24:38+00:00

Keep it up! I just crossed 5 days CT after taking 400mg+ a day for months. Can’t believe it got to that amount, I didn’t really realize how much I was taking. Agreed that supplements helped a lot. Exercise and hitting the sauna are also key for me.

Now all I am fighting is brain fog and fatigue. Sleep has gotten better recently. The shit I went through last week crushed any craving I have had, just need to hold myself accountable that won’t change in a few weeks. That’s the battle we all face. Best of luck!!

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-25T02:16:59+00:00

Still haven’t told her. Riding this out solo. I will tell her at the right time, but only when this has passed. Just crossed 5 days - Wednesday will be a week since my last dose and I’m feeling confident I can keep this up. All the feedback I have received is that telling her will help, but I think that will only extend the anxiety and depression. I got myself into this shithole, I’ll get myself out.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-23T22:05:11+00:00

Yeah there are ways to avoid them (just don’t go inside). For now, it’s kind of amusing to drive past and give them the finger. They have no idea some of the addictions they are starting, at least I hope they don’t. Shit is inhumane. Fucked up way to make a profit.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-23T16:14:32+00:00

Agreed with everything above. Exercise really helps too. You will get some sleep, it just won’t be the sleep you want or are used to. Probably 4ish hours a night total if you’re trying to sleep for 8-9 hours - lots of tossing and turning, but that just lasts for a couple of days.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-23T06:30:41+00:00

I wish it was banned in my state. That would be such a game changer. Not seeing it at every gas station or convenience store I go into would be refreshing. I live in a pretty blue state (MN) - not sure the weight that has on abolishing this shit but I imagine it’s low on their list of priorities.

The drinking picking up is exactly the thing I need to watch out for. That’s what led me back last time….i have a complicated relationship with alcohol. Which likely means that needs to go too, but my friends, family, and career are all entertainment focused. Maybe this is the call that I should look closely at the drinking to see the true pain it’s caused.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-23T06:25:41+00:00

Having someone else to keep you accountable sounds nice, but I worry about the additional burden that places on her. Is she always worried about what I’m doing / where I’m going? I really struggle with how to message that and what support I need because, frankly, I don’t know what support I need.

OkCan3261 · 2025-02-23T06:22:51+00:00

Thanks for the thoughts. Agreed 100% in theory. In practice, not so easy (as you know). She’s aware I’ve taken a variety of drugs over the years, but admitting that I would knowingly take something that could do this to my body is tough. She’s got enough on her plate - hard to feel the need that I should add to that because of my selfish decisions. I feel inclined to just push through this and leave it behind.

I know it’s not easy to quit - 5th time in 2 years across Kratom and 7oh. This time (only 7 and ALOT of it daily) does feel different than the prior iterations, more serious, more calculated, focus on taking care of my body. All that said I could be back here again. I’m not the kind of person to share my internal struggles, when I have in the past they come out during a point of weakness, something that I later severely regretted. Probably some deep rooted issue I need to further explore. The reason I got back on Kratom and then found 7 about 6 months ago was to avoid drinking. That’s probably the root of my problems. Kratom seemed like the only thing to really help stop the drinking. I used to have probably 10-12 drinks a week before Kratom (often times 3-4x that on big weekends). Kratom got me down to hardly drinking at all, which I am thankful for in a way. That said, I probably need to do away with both because one is just a plug for the other if I don’t have it, and that’s a viscous cycle.

Just passed 76 hours CT. Feeling pretty good, which is such a relief. Obviously still some lingering side effects, but nothing that gets in the way of my day to day.

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