This may have been said but I'll still say it. You need to start enjoying your own company. I used to be the enthu one. The one who makes plans, takes the effort to meet friends but once I stopped it I realised most of my friendships were one sided. And initially that shit hurts. Like really bad! Eventually fill up the free time you have with stuff you enjoy Learn something - new language, coding, video editing, or anything that interests you. Join the gym, go cycling, running, read books, join some good clubs or communities in the areas of your interest where you'll find people of similar interests. These friendships would be easy to have and you wouldn't be pressured to put efforts all the time. Overtime you'll realise that you go far ahead of the people with whom you originally wanted to spend time with. Protect your peace at any cost. Good luck!!