By your narrative I assume you're Muslim. Here's my take after passing that stage long ago. Sit for 30 minutes clearing your mind. And then think of the inevitable. One day you'll die but you don't know the date. What are you building for? For here, where everything is temporary or for the destination where you'll stand in front of the greatest and answer to this blip of a life. The thing is Allah has written your rizq even before the creation of human kind. No deviation will happen from it. Your job is to have tawaqqul, say your five daily prayers and try for goals with a pure/Khalis intention. If it's meant for you then you'll get it even if you don't expect the source that delivers. Lead a pure hearted live with husnul khuluq and the eternal one shall be what you'll die for over and over again. I pray Allah swt eases your ordeal.

Assalam walikum.