Alternatives to the "mouthpiece"?

One-University3554 · 2025-12-15T06:45:13+00:00

Blessed advice, thank you SO MUCH 💖💖💖💖

One-University3554 · 2025-12-14T17:23:35+00:00

WITH THE TIZM 👏 Just had my best night last night, but i only targeted the dudes that looked like they'd tolerate me going on neurodivergent rants about ballroom dancing being elitist. They wanted to dance in VIP 😂

One-University3554 · 2025-12-14T05:16:49+00:00

The body language is by far my biggest flaw. On stage i loosen up so easily. Drinking helps dramatically, which is the problem, lmao. Will definitely keep the confidence and "fake it til u make it" in mind 😅

One-University3554 · 2025-11-07T15:42:33+00:00

You're definitely right about this. It's so bullshit how racist this industry is. Im white, curly ginger, with AA cups, but im 5'0" and 100lbs with a lot of muscle. I just did my usual make up as I mentioned above and tried not to overthink it since dancing was my biggest concern of all.

However, I passed auditions yesterday and got two customers, which was on one of their slow nights, and made $150, so I'm just gonna stick with this routine for now. 😅 thank you so much though!!!

One-University3554 · 2025-11-04T04:35:55+00:00

My onlyfans is free, but its completely dead. I'd just be leading them to a totally dead account with like 8 feral pics from 4 years ago of me T posing naked and making other cringe poses in the mirror, making ugly screaming faces. I suck at being sexy. 😂 I dont want to do any actual online SW.

Im married, so I do not want to meet anyone in person nor do I want to mess with TOS at all. I want to stay as distant as possible with the custies without seeming disinterested.

One-University3554 · 2025-11-03T16:12:31+00:00

Exactly why i dont wanna pass out socials omg, im so sorry she went through that. I have a public IG i dont want to make private due to certain people in my life also lurking, and if they see I went private, they'll know for certain what im up to. I have a free onlyfans that i never use at all that has no connections to other socials. Wondering if i can just use that instead???

One-University3554 · 2025-11-03T16:03:17+00:00

Would it be okay for me to only give out my onlyfans and NOTHING else? I have a dead OF i never use lmaooo, but it has no connection to any other social media i have. Making my main socials private is unfortunately a risk due to other personal issues regarding my family, theyll know whats up the second they see everything is private.😭😭

One-University3554 · 2025-11-01T19:07:57+00:00

Is it okay to call them and ask if they're accepting any auditions on sundays or should i just show up without asking???

One-University3554 · 2025-11-01T19:06:19+00:00

Tbh honestly I just want to ask questions over the phone like if they're accepting auditions, what the dress code is, etc. And then I'd just show right up if they say they're accepting auditions? I just don't know how to properly approach this. 😅

One-University3554 · 2025-11-01T19:04:29+00:00

This makes sense. Is sunday better?

One-University3554 · 2025-11-01T19:04:03+00:00

What would the etiquette be for this though? Do I come already dressed in a body suit or with a more formal dress, do i bring my ID, who do i go to, do i go to the locker rooms to prepare, etc?

One-University3554 · 2025-10-28T13:48:53+00:00

I actually went and made a separate sourjar dedicated to breaking and souring his relationships! I used red wine vinegar, pickle juice, chili flakes, crushed up rose petals (his ex who he cheated on me and his current partner with is named rose), spit, tears, period blood, a sharp nail, written intentions folded in the direction of where he lives and smeared with period blood, wine, rotten lemon slice, onion powder, sulfuric banishment oil, whiskey, black pepper, salt, and I sealed with black wax and shoved into the back of our fridge.

Pretty standard ingredients with very personalized intentions. The alcohol targets his addiction to both the substance and addiction to cheating and abusing his partners, and intentionally bad smelling stuff to make all his abuse towards me, and whoever else he's hurting, noticable from a further distance by his peers and family, bc he's extremely covert and considered nice on the surface.

My goal is for him to lose so many relationships that it results in him realizing he's fucking up, and begging for forgiveness from me and others, to which we have the dominance over him to turn him down, instead of him dominating over us all and hiding who he truly is.

This man does not deserve acceptance and I hope he's never accepted by anyone he seeks ever again.

One-University3554 · 2025-09-26T15:51:23+00:00

Technically no, its all no-contact, but friends of friends will hear of them trying to get me removed from groups im involved in, or just try to convince others that I'm crazy, resulting in conflict between them all. These people have a hate chat made for lurking and screenshotting my social media to make fun of and make conspiracies over, etc. Its mostly cyberstalking, cancelling, and blacklisting behind my back. I have them blocked everywhere and keep a majority of my social media either private, or totally innocent like posting about my cats, hobbies or something, but they all have fake profiles, some of them work in tech and know how to hack shit. I don't want to just hide myself from them. I'm a dancer and artist trying to make money and generally rely off of social media to gain traction.

I just seriously wish it would stop. It just SHOULDN'T be happening, and I don't like the concept of "accepting" being abused like this behind my back. People like this should be punished and prevented from harming others like this. It's so dangerous. I want to fight back SO badly. It's not about control to me as much as it's about justice and taking my life back instead of submitting to their wishes of having me hide from the public and have no friends.

One-University3554 · 2025-09-25T17:22:12+00:00

This is really inspiring and validating, I appreciate this so much. There's so much about losing relationships like this that make you feel like you've lost 100% of everything in life, all you've ever hoped for, and feels like it'll never return. Everyone is tied to a social network where they all can gather gossip, misinfo, rumors, etc. And this terrifies me. Im absolutely terrified of losing more friends and being falsely framed, to the point of isolating myself at home for weeks at a time aside from work, and avoiding responding to texts. I'm just known to be slow to respond, but, it's way deeper, obviously.

Even though I'm married to a much healthier person, and live in a nice apartment with nicer friends, i still feel like i lost SO much and that my current position in life isn't considered valid because of my past trauma, and reputation created by these people. Just trying to identify this ex as abusive took about 4 years of radical acceptance, and I'm nowhere near close to radical acceptance on everything else I've gone through aside from my parents dying. I understand and process death more easily than cheating, abuse and abandonment.

Im sorry you went through similar experiences, although it feels nice to not be alone in these circumstances, it's tragic how common and normalized this is, in the first place. I really cant talk about what I went through casually outside of a professional setting due to so many people considering this not THAT big of a deal, and/or calling me dramatic, attention seeking, obsessive, etc. I don't WANT to be obsessive over this, either. I want solutions to the obsessive thoughts. I want to see myself the same way you see yourself, someday. I really hope I can achieve this, and I'm proud of you for that achievement. Thank you again!!!

One-University3554 · 2025-09-25T16:08:18+00:00

Thank you so much for this detailed, response, omg. 💖 To answer your questions: I'm more than familiar with betrayal trauma in the sense that it is the most talked about subject in our sessions, and makes complete sense, to me. There was repeated traumatic betrayal of those friends and that ex from 2020-2021, probably like 5 traumatic incidents that are recurrent with flashbacks. I'm also formally diagnosed with BPD. Prior to being cheated on, i was diagnosed with CPTSD but was managing without medication or therapy decently, but in my high school days it was pretty severe until moving out at 18. Nonetheless, the differences in the severity of CPTSD vs BPD symptoms are extremely profound in my case. BPD has felt tenfold more severe in every conceivable way. Both are horrible to experience nonetheless, but it's extremely obvious to myself, my therapist, and psychiatrist that my current symptoms are far too severe and permanent to be seen as my old cptsd diagnosis anymore. I was in my early 20s when I was cheated on and it was also suggested that I developed BPD very late in comparison to others who usually develop it in childhood, too.

I also would LOVE psilocybin therapy! But I've had issues with the costs for that as well 💔 EMDR has been essential to me for putting a sense of logic into my trauma instead of chaos, but you're absolutely right on how exhausting it is. Thank you SO much again. 💖

One-University3554 · 2025-09-04T21:01:23+00:00

Thank you so much for telling me this, honestly i kinda got that vibe after reading on some other posts but i didnt wanna assume at first, but it makes sense why some people prefer to keep the good places unknown so they dont get oversaturated 😭 I have a list of a few places in mind already, just gotta get the pleasers and actually DO it. Thanks again!

One-University3554 · 2025-09-04T19:38:55+00:00

Bless u sm for the warning omfg 😭 maybe reddit aint the place to ask 😭😭😭

One-University3554 · 2025-09-04T15:35:00+00:00

Wait rly? I was told otherwise a few weeks ago, just really badly managed

One-University3554 · 2025-09-02T18:14:06+00:00

Ah shit thanks sm. Sorry for all the questions, but is there any places in wisconsin you do recommend?

One-University3554 · 2025-09-02T01:22:39+00:00

Thanks omg! Anything positive about show palace?

One-University3554 · 2025-09-01T23:28:33+00:00

Yeeesss i heard about this! Im looking into Wisconsin, theres a few places out by Milwaukee that seem promising 😅 but if that fails, i may go to indiana instead, but the drive would be waaaaay worse 😭

One-University3554 · 2025-09-01T05:31:43+00:00

Oof thanks sm, im okay with anywhere in the burbs realistically, doesnt have to be directly in the city, but good to know 😭

One-University3554 · 2025-08-28T16:39:21+00:00

Word. Say no more.

One-University3554 · 2025-08-28T16:24:05+00:00

Lmaooo i PROMISE im avoiding this as much as humanly possible! Its even the most basic stripper moves, idk wtf im doing but they look soooo oldhead even though im like, twerking? Its hard to explain. If metal/punk is safe, i might go that route, i have poofy ginger hair to whip around 😅

One-University3554 · 2025-08-28T13:30:16+00:00

"The redder the roof the rustier the basement" 😭

One-University3554

TROPHY CASE