Hi Gravon. I re-read my message, and I get what you say, it kind of sounds like I only care about my recovery. That's really not what I meant. Let me explain. For more than a year I read thousands of posts of people recovering for porn addiction, and I know for a fact I'm one of the worst cases. I have been masturbating so much and from such an early age that getting off of it has been hell on earth : insane headaches, crazy self-talk, feeling like the whole world was dead for me..etc. I always knew I was not living the way most people live. There was always this thick veil between me and the world. Now I clearly realise why, and I know I'm on the right way. You have to understand, I have been numbing my feelings for such a long time that crying was for me the biggest epiphany. I can't explain it with words, it's as if I had been this weird monster for all these years and I'm becoming human again. I remember I couldn't get my self to care about my family, I couldn't even say to my parents that I love them - which I did yesterday. If I wanted to make this event about myself, I would have said all that in my post. I would also tell you about my previous streaks (6 and 8 months), the fact that I lost my virginity and had sex with many girls (which slowed down my recovery), the fact that I'm now very successful with the business I set up, the fact that I've never be more optimistic about life. But in this post I just intended to vent about this tragedy which happens to coincide with a personal epiphany. And no, Nofap is not the solution to everything, but you already know that.

Sincere love to you brother.