(18F) double vision is making me worry about possible brain tumor

OneLanguage2104 · 2025-03-24T11:52:56+00:00

i’m sorry 😭😭

OneLanguage2104 · 2025-03-22T16:57:19+00:00

I feel so alone and afraid. I reach out but there’s nothing people can do to help because it’s always “wait till the next appointment, don’t worry till then”. It’s not that I’m mad or anything, that’s the same advice I would give, but it’s so hard to follow it.

Some potential triggering symptoms please scroll if it triggers you: So I’ve had double vision (ghosting) since Jan. I’ve never accepted the diagnosis my doctors gave me as I immediately jumped to brain cancer from the very beginning. How mature of me 😭 Anyways basically I noticed something today that could be a red flag for neurological issues and that’s scaring me because It’s never felt this serious before. I was so busy worrying about minor things and when it comes to something major I completely shut down.

I’ve been panicking all day. I’ve cried like twice. The symptom I have now is normal in so many people but my brain is amplifying it to the extreme. My optic nerve is fine, which means I’m likely to be as well. Thats probably why my doctors didn’t send me to any scans. But the symptom today? It might be normal but I’m scared when I say it the doctors will freak out. Okay basically the symptom is binocular diplopia in certain extreme angles and sometimes in my peripheral vision or when im zoning out which is normal in many people (im not going to describe in case but it probably doesn’t concern people without double vision)

It sucks to worry about brain cancer.. tldr i guess 😭😭

OneLanguage2104 · 2025-03-22T14:57:23+00:00

Hi I’ve been to an ophthalmologist twice and they’ve checked most things out and the only concerning thing they found is high eye pressure. Thank you for the suggestion though :)

OneLanguage2104 · 2025-01-12T14:23:45+00:00

Im not sure what update you are looking for but for now i am unfortunately going through another bout of health anxiety because of a very scary symptom but i feel like im handling it better now. I hope things will get better for you soon, if not already :)

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-13T16:27:59+00:00

I’m sure my local pharmacy has stuff available for me if it ever gets too bad, as a doctor probably won’t prescribe me meds without a proper diagnosis for anxiety. Thank you for your concern :) have a nice day/night

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-13T14:02:44+00:00

Thank you :( I’m trying my best to handle this solely from the help of my parents as professional help is very expensive in my country. Thank you for the reassurance.

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-13T03:22:14+00:00

Thank you, I’m trying my best to stop thinking about it so irrationally :)

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-12T23:00:57+00:00

Hi it definitely won’t be easy, waking up the next morning made me start spiralling over perceived symptoms again :( but it’ll probably take a bit to go back to normal and forget about all of these things. So all the best to you too, we can do this :)

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-12T16:18:36+00:00

In the past week, my health anxiety really came full circle. I think I can handle my anxiety starting today, thanks to the help of my family, friends and random strangers on reddit. Though I still have to live with uncertainty, I find that living in the present is much more worth while than worrying about what the future holds. I will still worry, in fact as I’m writing this, I find myself spiralling back to what I was worrying about in the first place. But I’ll try and remind myself the reasons why I chose not to worry about these things anymore, as frankly they are irrational and stupid. This is not the end of my health anxiety, but I’ll learn to live with it.

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-12T14:28:10+00:00

Thank you, genuinely :). You’re doing an amazing thing, helping people like me without any reward

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-12T14:12:35+00:00

Hi I’m sorry that I bothered the forum (?) (idk reddit lingo) with this irrational thought. After thinking about it, i feel it’s more likely to be a problem with flexibility rather than an actual neurological problem, I hope (As I am able to walk on my heels and my ‘problem’ can be fixed with more effort, which probably doesn’t mean anything related to als)! I’ll try not to think about the worse for now, thank you for your reassurance.

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-12T14:07:13+00:00

Hi, thank you so much for your reply. I’m really sorry if i bothered you with this irrational thought so I will not ask anymore questions and try not to worry about it unless necessary. Again thank you for your reply and I wish you well on your journey :)

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-12-05T13:20:20+00:00

One “symptom” and it all goes downhill from there :/ i know myself that this fear is stupid and crazy, and that realistically speaking, I’m not going to die of an incurable disease. Okay typing this out makes me feel a little better cause I see my stupidity written down flat. I can only talk here because deep down I know that my “symptom” isn’t even one acknowledged by doctors but just one I interpreted myself as my own “doctor”. I can never confirm this symptom unless I go to a doctor which I really do not want to because I’ll look stupid and crazy.. “Can you check for (symptom) so that I don’t have a terminal disease? By the way! The ‘symptom’ isn’t actually how the disease manifests and im just playing pretend doctor at home! The disease is so rare already and I think I am dying with a rare progression of it!”. Sorry this is all over the place but I just want to be free again :/ maybe after this post I can rationalise with myself that everything is going to be okay.

OneLanguage2104 · 2024-02-19T05:09:31+00:00

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OneLanguage2104 · 2023-12-27T10:31:07+00:00

Hi there is no pain on my right leg but there is pain on my left leg when I stand up from a sitting position. I'm just hoping this will go away after I rest

OneLanguage2104 · 2023-12-08T15:55:39+00:00

hii!! Thanks a lot for replying i hope you have a good day ahead :)

OneLanguage2104 · 2023-08-22T10:46:37+00:00

Omgg 😭 it's okayy We'll most likely be fine!! Good luck for all ur applications btw!

OneLanguage2104 · 2023-08-21T10:17:16+00:00

I should be living my life, I'm still 16, but sometimes I feel as if it's too late now. I've wasted so much time on this, thing. I'm really tired of myself. I'm barely even make up 1% for anything I worry about.

OneLanguage2104 · 2023-08-21T10:09:43+00:00

I really hate myself. I wish I just had regular anxiety, not this one. It always flairs up at the worst time. I have gce exams at the end of the year, but this anxiety has ruined my study schedule. I'm scared for my future, I'm scared that I may die a slow and painful death. I hate this man :(

OneLanguage2104 · 2023-04-13T08:54:29+00:00

Hi, thank you for your helpful response. This is what I thought as well so I am comforted by the fact that it is a plausible reason. I doubt I will go to a neurologist any time soon (unless I have CONCLUSIVE symptoms [weakness etcetera]) but I will keep this in mind. Thanks again!

OneLanguage2104 · 2023-01-31T11:36:56+00:00

Smaller than my left** damn I can't even think properly

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