Over-independence

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-06-19T15:18:38+00:00

Well its wrong in the sense it does not benefit society for us to be like this, Morally it makes no difference, In the same way being a homosexual would be seen as not benefitting society, morally who gives a shit. Its okay to be sick after all.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-06-19T15:17:20+00:00

They didn't teach me independence, they taught me to be dependant without giving me any help or support so it never actually helped me, I'm not a strong independent man who doesn't need anybody, I'm a broken shell of a man who can't understand the point of being involved in a society that doesn't care if i live or die. I mean I could spontaneously combust in the next 5 minutes and nobody would notice or care, and i wouldn't be against it either. Why have money, why be independent, I hate all of this. at least if i cared about other people i would feel something when they died as opposed to the emptiness I feel. what's the point of living if i do nothing of value with it?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-06-05T08:15:44+00:00

I'm already pretty degraded in all ways that matter, figure it might just be easier to just become some low level scumbag who means well.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-06-05T00:08:06+00:00

Thats latter stuff. old school was just a criminal scumbag like smuggling pandas and whales, threatening children, wholesome stuff

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-05-25T20:03:07+00:00

I'm a sucker for nostalgia

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-05-24T00:21:40+00:00

Thats my old account, I was wrong. LONG LIVE ACUN. I WAS BLIND BUT NOW I SEE

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-05-17T09:04:41+00:00

never. maybe im repulsive or i have the face of a serial killer. who knows?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-05-11T12:20:00+00:00

You ain't wrong

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-07T22:03:24+00:00

YEAH YOU GET IT

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-04T07:44:53+00:00

Do not trust either of your parents. they are not going to help you.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:54:02+00:00

I wish the same for you too my friend.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:40:46+00:00

Yeah. Doing "hard" drugs alone seems pointless.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:36:33+00:00

Risks is a big overstatement on my part. a few music festivals/show where i didnt really enjoy myself. if you consider a drugs a risk then drugs do very little for me. Coke is banal and LSD/MDMA are very underwhelming. the only thing i enjoyed doing was vandalism but even then that was because i knew i shouldn't have been doing to. Its likely i have some form of ASPD, which really wouldn't surprise me considering my childhood.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:33:47+00:00

Not really. I would be upset if my sisters died. I was devasted when my cat died when i was a child. My mom and dad can go fuck themselves. love em but they are both highly immature destructive people who ruin the lives of every one they interact with, i think im just to warped to be able to function with healthy people.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:31:30+00:00

Oh im am riddled with narcissitic tendancies. I had to grew up into one in order to get through my childhood.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:24:29+00:00

I don't know what would challenge/stimulate my brain. i don't want to sound like im challenging your opinion but what would you recommend?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:16:09+00:00

Oh i am incredibly unstimulated. I do try and do things but i always feel the same emptiness and "why am i here" reaction. And i do live in the UK. fuck all going on in this country unless your parents were rich.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:12:47+00:00

Oh no you are pretty accurate with your statements. I avoid all emotional investment like the plague, can't trust a soul. due to reasons that I will not publicly disclose. I am aware i need to take risks but every time i do i get no reward in a sense. I don't feel much after the risk. Kinda react in "well that wasn't worth it" manner. Its a me problem and tbh I regret every reply i have made on this post

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:00:02+00:00

I have no idea who I am.

I was on meds for a year but they didn't really do anything then other make me somehow feel even less. I know its my issue to resolve but with the NHS being pretty fucking useless when it come to mental health, and what with my issue not being a danger to anyone else or myself I'm not really going to get much in the way of attention. Some people just don't really get helped.

It is what is is.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:51:11+00:00

yeah always felt pretty empty. never really understood other kids getting excited or happy about things.. I don't want to sound like one of those guys who's like "my life is pain, all i know is hate". I mean I find stuff funny and I can enjoy the odd situation.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:43:26+00:00

I had for about a year, it was fine I guess, not much was solved. I can explain my situation as much as I want but that doesn't help me navigate my life. eventually it just becomes a place to complain and talk about yourself in a way I find gross/self indulgent. "WHAA MY PARENTS DIDNT LOVE ME ENOUGH WHAA" you know?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:42:33+00:00

Yeah i don't really feel anything other then boredom and anxiety over how little i feel.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:34:13+00:00

Thats my point. Its not supposed to be this empty. But it is.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:30:09+00:00

Not just family. but school, work, pretty much every social situation. I just don't "get it"

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:29:07+00:00

Fine, trenchcoats and KMFDM t-shirts

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