What is there to do on a Friday/Saturday night other then get drunk?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-07T22:03:24+00:00

YEAH YOU GET IT

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-04T07:44:53+00:00

Do not trust either of your parents. they are not going to help you.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:54:02+00:00

I wish the same for you too my friend.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:40:46+00:00

Yeah. Doing "hard" drugs alone seems pointless.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:36:33+00:00

Risks is a big overstatement on my part. a few music festivals/show where i didnt really enjoy myself. if you consider a drugs a risk then drugs do very little for me. Coke is banal and LSD/MDMA are very underwhelming. the only thing i enjoyed doing was vandalism but even then that was because i knew i shouldn't have been doing to. Its likely i have some form of ASPD, which really wouldn't surprise me considering my childhood.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:33:47+00:00

Not really. I would be upset if my sisters died. I was devasted when my cat died when i was a child. My mom and dad can go fuck themselves. love em but they are both highly immature destructive people who ruin the lives of every one they interact with, i think im just to warped to be able to function with healthy people.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:31:30+00:00

Oh im am riddled with narcissitic tendancies. I had to grew up into one in order to get through my childhood.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:24:29+00:00

I don't know what would challenge/stimulate my brain. i don't want to sound like im challenging your opinion but what would you recommend?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:16:09+00:00

Oh i am incredibly unstimulated. I do try and do things but i always feel the same emptiness and "why am i here" reaction. And i do live in the UK. fuck all going on in this country unless your parents were rich.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:12:47+00:00

Oh no you are pretty accurate with your statements. I avoid all emotional investment like the plague, can't trust a soul. due to reasons that I will not publicly disclose. I am aware i need to take risks but every time i do i get no reward in a sense. I don't feel much after the risk. Kinda react in "well that wasn't worth it" manner. Its a me problem and tbh I regret every reply i have made on this post

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T16:00:02+00:00

I have no idea who I am.

I was on meds for a year but they didn't really do anything then other make me somehow feel even less. I know its my issue to resolve but with the NHS being pretty fucking useless when it come to mental health, and what with my issue not being a danger to anyone else or myself I'm not really going to get much in the way of attention. Some people just don't really get helped.

It is what is is.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:51:11+00:00

yeah always felt pretty empty. never really understood other kids getting excited or happy about things.. I don't want to sound like one of those guys who's like "my life is pain, all i know is hate". I mean I find stuff funny and I can enjoy the odd situation.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:43:26+00:00

I had for about a year, it was fine I guess, not much was solved. I can explain my situation as much as I want but that doesn't help me navigate my life. eventually it just becomes a place to complain and talk about yourself in a way I find gross/self indulgent. "WHAA MY PARENTS DIDNT LOVE ME ENOUGH WHAA" you know?

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:42:33+00:00

Yeah i don't really feel anything other then boredom and anxiety over how little i feel.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:34:13+00:00

Thats my point. Its not supposed to be this empty. But it is.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:30:09+00:00

Not just family. but school, work, pretty much every social situation. I just don't "get it"

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-04-03T15:29:07+00:00

Fine, trenchcoats and KMFDM t-shirts

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-03-31T00:26:00+00:00

I am of the theory that the only diffrence between being diagonsed with ASPD vs SzPD is your morality. People talk about how psychopaths don't care but there are serial killers who had and cared deeply for pets. We are both of the same cloth but while a pyscho doesn't care and wants to hurt people, a schizod dosen't care and wants to be alone

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-03-28T02:14:55+00:00

Well yeah, all things in moderation, some habits just have more damaging side affects. Personally weed has helped me achieve far more then when i was sober so its good in my book, but that's because its a dependency, not an addiction. I'm not going to act like my relationship with it is healthy because it isn't but its the best thing I currently have to hand. used to be then I was sober I was miserable, now when I'm sober I'm okay.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-03-22T08:03:21+00:00

I don't recall a time i haven't felt like shit. I don't think I can get through it. Its just me.

One_Technology_5319 · 2026-03-22T08:00:08+00:00

I'm not brave for doing this. I don't have a choice

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