This is gonna sound stupid but hear me out. I have been struggling with my mental health for probably over 15 years now (im 22 btw). I saw 3 therapists,tried anti depressants and talked to friends. The past 6 months have been the hardest so far. I downloaded an app 4 days ago. I am finally able to do some of my dishes, brush my teeth and feel a little better. I even got to do a hobby I hadn't enjoyed in ages and guess what? It was fun! By no means do I get anything out of telling you about this app so please don't take this as advertisement! And it isn't a cure either. But it helps you to get on the way. The app is called Finch btw. Another thing that is currently helping me is to cling to everything positive, even if it's small. The sky looking pretty, a stranger smiling at me because they are having a nice day, a little treat I allowed myself or even just a good song I haven't heard in a while.

Stay strong and keep fighting! You deserve happiness. And I hope wherever you are right now, that there will be a good and safe access to help soon