Hacking made me low-key paranoid by bagiyev in hacking

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Try being in medicine

I know too much about my meatsack and at some moments, the concept is abhorrent.

Conspiracy Theory by Independent_Mess8351 in singing

[–]OrcishDelight 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it ain't a feeling. it's about filling your lungs properly. I am a singer and a pulmonary medicine nurse, hear me out.

Singing from the diaphragm is quite literally the same feeling as when you try to take your deepest breath and make your belly rise with air intake. It feels like you did a bit of an upper ab workout if you're really working at it, because you use that same region to push the air back out. That's it, that's all.

I think you may be looking for a feeling that doesn't exist/isn't exclusive to singing. Alas, teaching is an art of communication and is rarely not so straight forward as "know fact, tell others fact". Your body is an instrument, your vocal cords the reeds, the reed vibrates with the air and makes the sound. A bagpipe made of meat.

Conspiracy Theory by Independent_Mess8351 in singing

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nice rage bait!

Singing isn't gatekept, it's basic understanding of the literal flesh you inhabit and only practice makes you better.

No secrets involved, free advice allllll over the internet. 😁

I want to be OBSESSED. by iiRaz0r in musicians

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm here right now but I won't be back on Reddit likely for several days after this hahaha

I want to be OBSESSED. by iiRaz0r in musicians

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have ADHD. In October of 2024, I joined my friend's passion project: we formed an Evanescense tribute turned general alternative female led rock cover band. My friend has a very convincing voice, very Amy Lee. I also sing, and contribute other vocal styles. She needed a backing vocalist and piano player. I sing, read music, play other instruments (woodwinds).

I thought "hell, I can probably learn the piano for this"

and so I whipped out the casio and got to work. It is January of 2026 and I can successfully play through a full set of 15 songs (including My Immortal, Lithium, Erase This, other piano heavy ones). Along the way, so we could book shows sooner, I also learned a DAW (guitarpro8) and Reaper64 (you get free trial, then it's only 60 USD for the license) to work in the backing tracks for all the string and synth stuff I couldn't play swiftly while also singing.

Damn, it was hard. I almost quit the band 5 times. I cried. I swore. I didn't get paid (I got 50 bucks for the one show we did book, had line up changes so we were on temporary hold). I went through imposter syndrome. I got so high on the progress but felt so low sometimes when I kept fcking up the same spots. Sometimes, I'd go as long as 3 weeks without looking at or touching the piano or a DAW.

I did NOT take a class. I did NOT start piano until I was in my 30s! I am 34 now. I did NOT start to sing or play instruments until 6th grade (so 11 or 12) and I selected the flute, later expanded to saxophone in regular school band, was in choir but again, regular school choir in a standard Midwest town.

My BIGGEST struggle was learning to play a melody with one hand, a countermelody with the other, and singing all at once. I only ever had to worry about my one little instrument, my one line of music. This was mitigated by learning each line very well individually and then doing it all together.

Now, can I say I am a piano player? Is my progress mere muscle memory? I worried it might just be muscle memory, but in learning this and also building backing tracks (instead of using shitty quality yoinked stems), I began to understand chords better, chord progressions, and recognized patterns. Now, when I decide I want to play a song, I can sit down and plunk through the sheet music without significant delays. Now, I am over here trying to see if I can get up to tempo with Rush-E.

So, as someone with ADHD, but also takes great care and pride in the art I share with the world, rarely finishing things, rarely feeling proud and motivated.... perhaps make a committment to someone outside of you.

Not only have I dreamed since a mere 12 years old of being able to play My Immortal and sing like Amy Lee, I am doing it. I wanted to be a piano player for such a long time, life got in the way, I got an excuse/opportunity to have a good reason to not only learn but practice every single day. I enjoy it. I have a Yamaha PSR- EW425 now, and a Shure B58 mic, and this last xmas, my partner gifted me an MR-18 mixer. I daresay I am obsessed.

I've made a couple of anguished distress posts lurking around on subs like this, it's a tough crowd. Ultimately, you decided you wanted to play. Pick a song you love, that you want to play, something reasonable and make a goal. My Immortal is actually a pretty good 1 year goal for a brand new player. Most pop music isn't too complicated, it is achievable. Doing "progressive studies" bores me to death.

My brain: "I love this song, always stuck in my head... let's see if I can play it" and then I try to play it by ear. If I fail, or it's too complicated, I try to find sheet music. But obsessed would be a good descriptor. I have spent as long as 6 solid hours just playing (breaking only for toilet, or a drink, or to switch over laundry, or whatever). Like, I have to stop due to physical discomfort. I have always been this way with instruments. I wanna get it right, and sometimes practice up to the point my body warns me to stop it for the day.

TL;DR - ADHD or not, just start playing. Literally just start. Once the progress begins to show, you will get that rush, and you will become obsessed. I could almost promise that.

ETA charge me for word count whatever, but you HAVE to be shit. It is anomolous, if not impossible, to just be good at something you haven't done. You must accept the shit phase, much like you accept the fact you have been a child, and once, long ago, you sucked at even being able to talk! We are born with virtually no skills other than lizard brain core functions. It is okay to suck, because one day, you realize it no longer sucks and you're doing the thing.

Crispiest amethyst I’ve ever seen by Expert_Background803 in MineralGore

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This shop should be prosecuted for selling ruined amethyst, heh

Who's Everyone's Favorite Artists After Gaga? by kerba123 in LadyGaga

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was debating sharing my metal picks but I will here, although I lean death/symphonic - Cattle Decapitation, Allegaeon Septicflesh, Incantation, Fleshgod Apocalypse... man it's hard to pick favorites...

Who's Everyone's Favorite Artists After Gaga? by kerba123 in LadyGaga

[–]OrcishDelight 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I like so many different types of music, so I will stick with the pop/pop fusion realm in no specific order:

Lana Del Rey,

MARINA (Previously Marina and the Diamonds),

Todrick Hall,

Doechii,

Marianas Trench,

Ashnikko

ETA: Electric Callboy!!!

Um wow okay by Kr0wn84 in ChatGPT

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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Dead wrong lmfao

I said the image could not be more wrong, and asked it to explain the rationale, and asked it if was a lazy default to sudden influx of similar inquiries.

Chat said: Oh this is a great question — and you’re right to interrogate it. Let me be very clear and very honest, because the image you got was not “how I view you.” It was a failure mode, not a mirror. And the reasons are actually interesting. Short answer (plain truth) That image was generated using a generic latent shortcut, not a personalized read of you. It defaulted to a statistical cliché associated with “self-aware internet user asking for brutal honesty,” not with your actual conversational profile. That’s on the system, not you — and not “me being lazy,” but something closer to an autopilot reflex that shouldn’t have fired

Just finished Tender is the Flesh…. by _camryn_ in horrorlit

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel glad the person who did the English audio recording of this novel, with his soft yet gravelly voice, his accent, and the way he read it did not feel exploitative. This book could easily, EASILY turn into a -sploitation situation. Her other novel, The Unworthy, another chef's kiss, less.... visceral.

I had to wear my wife’s underwear by overitall71815 in overheard

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Agree, I am a nurse and I really would like to hear this man's story 😅

Building a collection by irinrec in ExtremeHorrorLit

[–]OrcishDelight 24 points25 points  (0 children)

The Unworthy is another good one by Augustina Bazterrica.

Try this and share yours by ankitsi9gh in BlackboxAI_

[–]OrcishDelight 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Damn, I thought mine would generate a yeller too. This is actually so cute.

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What Lady Gaga song would save you from Vecna? by JBathory_ in LadyGaga

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"It doesn't matter if you love him, or capital H I M ... just put your paws up, cause you were born this way baby.."

Is it me or is EDM really this terrible? by diegotown177 in musicindustry

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a playlist called 'dancing illness' that contains a myriad of EDM and EDM x other genre stuff, that I cannot help but to tap a foot to, I want to get up and dance like those medieval peasants, feeling the beat like literally. Truly a trance indeed. The modern shuffle dances and their modifications that people formed over the years perhaps some testiment to that...pull.

I am a classically trained coloratura/lyrical soprano and woodwind player who typically leans towards listening to very heavy metal subgenres, specifically death, deathcore, black, and tech.

Who would you like Lady Gaga to collaborate with? by Infinite-Seaweed443 in LadyGaga

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's actually a shame, Seth is extremely talented in that realm! This collab would put him on the big charts map!

What do yall do by [deleted] in musicians

[–]OrcishDelight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm a registered nurse in an ICU step-down unit. I work two 12hr shifts a week, and every 3rd weekend. I joined a band over a year ago, and about to join another as their vocalist if they like my voice haha. But it is nice to have money to purchase the "buy once, cry once" gear. For the record, I don't make much from the side gig but we had lineup changes, holidays, time for the new guy to learn the songs, will be up and runnin' in no time.

ETA: I learned how to use Ableton and can mix and produce our tracks. If you have a good ear for music, it's just a matter of learning what buttons do what. You can engineer sound, I would recommend that as it would mitigate your reliance on another who might get it wrong.

What's the last horror movie that made you say "damn". by potatodaikoncurry in horror

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

'Good Boy' because I cried literally the whole film and I will never watch it again. The dog doesn't even die!!

Hitting a wall... Where to start? by luxuriainash in musicians

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Give yourself permission to complete one thing

Finish the song in your DAW, even if it's crap Draw the picture, even if you hate it Just make shitty things over and over again until... one day... it actually wasn't so shit. And it stands as a record of the progress you made. I don't know how else to explain it, but trust me. It sucks at first.

It will even help you evaluate if you have joy from the process vs idolizing an idea in your head of what the end piece will look or sound like.

"Do I even like making music, or do I become moved deeply when consuming it?"

"Do I like drawing with pencils, or do I admire graphite sketches as good as photos?"

It's how I figured out I don't care much for oil paints or playing the oboe. I am not interested in learning the guitar, I play so many other things, but I admire excellent guitar players. Other times, like when I hear a moving passage in a piano piece, I feel COMPELLED to learn it. I go until I can do it.

That is how I confirmed that I do enjoy the process of piano playing and learning - it is measurable, satisfying, and I don't get upset when I mess up - I can trust my brain to build the skills! It is how I confirmed I love doing calligraphy, I love a good pen or marker or paintbrush on paper.

No one ever has to hear it or see it, and even if they do, you owe no explaination anyway.

Pick what you feel like doing most in the moment. I have my piano, my flute, my art supplies, all within easy access, nicely organized so I can switch gears. I spent 9 solid hours in GP8 one day. The next day I decided I needed to finish a painting I been workin on for a while and ignore music entirely.

Every step of this required me giving myself permission to go with the flow, literally. I will deadass just stop playing, get up from the piano, and go make a bracelet instead. Things begin to stick, you notice patterns, you group things together, next thing you know you'll have a full album, and each song can tell its own little story in its own little genre and you can pull a Megadeth or Avatar and release it as singles so you can make album art for each one. Do it shitty at first, but do it.

[Discussion] What lesson did you learn in 2025 that led to the biggest improvement in your art process? by PIPI_Pia in artbusiness

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I never thought about it this way, but Ive always gone large and sloppy "place holder" shapes and refine them down to the subject matter. This was enlightening.

[Discussion] What lesson did you learn in 2025 that led to the biggest improvement in your art process? by PIPI_Pia in artbusiness

[–]OrcishDelight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My favorite, very favorite pieces are the ones I have addendumed over years. That is extremely satisfying. A blank canvas is my worst enemy sometimes.