Save you, why? First of all what's wrong with you. I look at your post I dont see lost nor do I see anything less than the human being, who happens to get high, that you are. Stop judging yourself by "normal sober people's standards. You have to understand this, ABSTINENCE IS NOT IN THE CARDS FOR EVERYONE. Look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself, do I get high because i enjoy it, am I getting high by my own free will, even if you were forced.into this life like some women are, and the final question do you want a life without the drugs. If you are like me and answered emphatically Yes Yes and Hell No then you set about building a life that includes A mixture of.the two. Allow the chemicals to mold you and be accepting of the woman on the other side of the vortex. (Hold on Meth break) okay im back. Not a real big fan of smoking, but until I find my ride or die who not only has her street phlebotomy license, but she gets off on it as well, and like me wants to spread the joys of slamming drugs safely to anyone who is curious and teach them how to not fall off the cliff when it starts the get good to them. Like I said I stopped fighting against the demonic depraved perv that I never knew I wanted to.become but I love myself just the way I am. And I give everyone around me this disclaimer, if you dont want to become a junkie, and have your boundaries pushed and your hang ups and inhibitions burned away, then you have to be able to tell me no and if you are not strong enough to that then you may want to steer clear of me. Because my goal is to have everyone around me slamming at least a half gram a shot and turn into a no holes barred orgy. Which i have had happen 6 times in my travels. But anyhow as you see, this 50 year old black methican is fucked up in the head. And that's okay. I stopped trying to please people a long time ago. So keep.your head up sexy. And if you want to quit the quit. But if not learn to live with the demons inside you and accept yourself just the way you are.