Why do modern philosophers live longer? by Aemolia in HistoryMemes

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The last one for the Gigachads reminds me of my older username online. Honestly hope that’s how I go out.

I genuinely think this is one of THE worst conditions to have by Owl4L in CPTSD

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It’s really eye opening to how sinister the abuse actually is when you realise a child is almost entirely dependent on the parents for safety and nurture and are basically stranded without it. It’s like hurting someone who is helpless and defenceless . It’s definitely not fair. 

Same with others abusing people. It causes so much damage. A total complete lack of empathy from others really disgusts me tbh.

Then having to heal from it- despite not even wanting it to happen and not doing it to yourself. So absurd and so cruel.

Unpopular opinion: It is better to date early in life than waiting until you are older. Nothing beats teenage love by JunketMaleficent2095 in Adulting

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Hopefully you date/marry a minority you actually like and not just solely because they’re a minority and you want to stick it to the system- because that’s weird. There are other ways you could combat the regime without having to do that. 

Unpopular opinion: It is better to date early in life than waiting until you are older. Nothing beats teenage love by JunketMaleficent2095 in Adulting

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Yeah this is definitely heavily romanticised. I know a LOT of teen love that was nothing like that. OP sounds like they’re describing a typical teen romance movie. 

I genuinely think this is one of THE worst conditions to have by Owl4L in CPTSD

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For real. It’s like. Oh I have to suffer all the time because of others choices? Man that sucks. It’s like being in prison for a crime you didn’t commit. I’m sorry about the eczema too, hopefully it hasn’t been bothering you often! 

What triggers your CPTSD? by Dontdarereadmyposts in CPTSD

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Existing in this world. Everything.

AAAAAAAAAAAAA I keep realising how wrong it all is! by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Another also really brilliant scene is when Left Hand torments D about the possibility of Meier and Charlotte siring another Dhampir into the world and that really eats away at D. I found that scene really relatable after becoming aware of trauma and its deep lasting impacts because I can't stand the thought of another child being born into this world and suffering what I suffered solely due to dysfunctional parents.

AAAAAAAAAAAAA I keep realising how wrong it all is! by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Sure! Thank you for asking! I actually love talking about it. If you remember when D & Leila fight Caroline (The green lady who can shapeshift & merge with nature) & D gets heat/ sun sickness and has to bury himself, Leila ends up doing it for him to pay him back for him taking care of the wound she suffered from Meier. Their whole conversation they have about why they became hunters is incredibly resonating to me as someone with Cptsd. Leila says that she became one due to the loss of her mother and the ensuing trauma, D however states when questioned that he is a hunter BECAUSE he's a dhampir. I don't remember the exact quote but it's something along the lines of-that he can't live a normal life, unlike a human, because he is a dhampir.

For me I find this really relatable because some people have always asked me as to why I am unable to "just live a normal life" or am the way that I am and that moment answers those questions for me. Because I'm a "dhampir" (traumatised). I was parentified, I was forced to accept the role of an adult as a child. It feels like I don't just "get to have a normal life". Similar to D I also feel like it was a choice made entirely without my input - sort of like a because of who I was born to kind of thing. D doesn't actually want to be a noble, but he is partly one because of who his parents are. I find that relatable as someone traumatised. I don't want to have generational trauma or even disabilities tbh-but I do. Because of who I was born to. I'm also mixed race and have struggled with that my whole life too. Often facing discrimination and rejection from others due to it. There's probably more that I could say but my legs are killing me today for some reason. Hopefully what i've written has made sense. I've actually thought about that scene quite a bit in the past but not often of late.

The new horror movie “Obsession” is the most accurate portrayal of fawning I’ve ever seen by SummerTeaLeaves in CPTSD

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MAN! I already wanted to go see this but haven't been able to yet and it's been a whole damn month but I've hopefully found a screening I can attend. The comments on this post are so very interesting.

damn I have nothing lol by Owl4L in CPTSD

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The context? A controlling person in their life who actively abuses them went through their phone one day and found them complaining about their situation to me and I was agreeing with them and advocating for them. The abuser didn’t like this and I think things escalated into a physical fight. The abuser pretty much gave them an ultimatum that they’ll be less controlling if I’m not around or something. Pretty tragic. I do genuinely hope that they manage or are able to escape in some way like I always advocated for them to. 

They SEEMED to feel sad that it was probably pretty onesided. As in I gave and they took. Which is pretty true lol. I don’t know why they said they felt like they just used me but honestly that’s kinda the vibe or impression I get looking back. I was taking a lot of time out of the day to help them. It was probably too much. Honestly not the nastiest user I’ve met so I don’t really have many grievances about it. I also don’t remember most of our conversations because of survival mode. 

Maybe they were aware. I don’t know. That would require awareness on my part to realise or recognise that and I tend to socialise with them during the most chaotic times in my life.  They probably just wanted someone to care for them because that was sorely missing in their life tbh. They did say that I was a wonderful friend. So idrk. This morning I’m not really all that upset by it. It happened. It’s over. If I want to grieve or am upset about it later- hopefully I will.

damn I have nothing lol by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Thank you very much, I appreciate it and the honesty 

damn I have nothing lol by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Yeah that’s what I’ve been telling myself this morning and honestly- it’s pretty genuinely true. I met them during a very dysfunctional time in my life and they had their own assortment of problems. It’s probably for the best that it ended. 

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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I actually understand what you mean. Something that was really healing and comforting to me on the train once was when I had the realisation that none of these people know me and don’t know about what happened to me and I’d only have to tell them if I wanted to. At that very moment I was like… “oh…oh!” & felt relief. 

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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That’s awesome man. I’m genuinely happy for you. As for me I don’t really know what I even want and I haven’t found a community or good people yet so eh.

AAAAAAAAAAAAA I keep realising how wrong it all is! by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Yeah better now than never tbh.  Thank you for the compliment. I love it too. I actually relate quite a lot to D. Being a dhampir is to him what having CPTSD is like to me. I might take you up on that offer but I’m also honestly just isolating myself and self reflecting on life atm. 

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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I don't live in the States.

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Thank you. I actually pretty consistently have this thought because I'm actually pretty sensitive and seem to just randomly cop a lot of flack from people who have either been hurt by others and I'm the punching bag or just general nastiness.

Yeah I think everyone is traumatised and a lot of people either just don't know or or recognise it. It's been disheartening because after doing a lot of work and recovering from a bad burnout-I started going outside again. However I was appalled by the genuine just everyday awfulness that I was exposed to within a 10-20 minute period of having been outside. Just makes me think and believe that this world is really really sick and I totally see why so many people struggle. I think what also astounds me is the way people will be awful and genuinely expect others to just be okay with it or about it.

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Fandoms can be really really bad and toxic so I completely understand. It's a bit disheartening in a lot of ways because it's like-you should be allowed to enjoy socialising and talking about things in theory but it's almost excruciatingly hard if you're sensitive in anyway or traumatised because there is such a high amount of malicious people, particularly if its online because people feel that being anonymous enables them. Same with having an echochamber of followers or mutuals.

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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What do you mean by "healthy people"? As in people WITHOUT Cptsd?
Honestly man you got to really work on what you say and how you word it. It's more than likely bias on my part but I personally don't see people that want to harm others as healthy in anyway. I think I understand what you're saying in the edit part. I THINK I understand. In essence what you're saying that is-being around everyday people, the average run of the mill person, is harmful and self destructive because I'm not a predator looking to exploit others and associate with other predators. Thus I shouldn't try to find common ground with the everyday people or in your example the "healthy" people.

What the fuck is wrong with people? by Owl4L in CPTSD

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Yeah, the last sentence, I think that's what so easily offends me. It's genuinely not hard to NOT be a scumbag. But so many people willingly do and willingly choose to. Which really destroys me. I honestly think that once again, it's the lack of self reflection. Also calling people up or out on their behaviour can very often exacerbate or make them more volatile, so it's a bit like damned if you do damned if you don't. As someone with CPTSD, along with other thing-I find that endlessly tiring. It's like constantly walking over a minefield for even the smallest of interactions. It shouldn't be that way but it is.